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11/28/12

Today I Cried

Well, it has been an interesting few days...weeks...WHO am I trying to kid here? It's more like months....YEPPERS, I have been on an emotional "roller" coaster.  Honesty, I have been doing really good about hiding it. Holding it all in. Until.....TODAY....Yep.....Today I cried.
It was the strangest thing. I don't know if it was hormones or left over anesthesia from my procedure yestetday. Both maybe? But the strangest thing happened today at Target. As I walked past the baby  girls clothes I just got so excited inside as I saw all the precious  little outfits. Then I rounded the corner and saw the baby boys section. Again, my heart just leaped! I thought to myself, "Oh if I only had grand babies to spoil!"
Then suddenly I remembered I did, but I didn't. My heart sunk....and I cried. Right there in public. Tears literally flowed...streamed....down my cheeks. I completely forgot why I came to Target...and left as quickly as I could. Trying not to be seen.
I have been so strong. All this time.
So I thought.
Then I went to Target and I cried.
Go figure.