Hi ~ Yeah, well life can be tough I know. I am sorry.
I don't have the answers for you.

I can tell you I have been down my own road less traveled....my own rocky path.
I have traveled through many lonely, cold dark valley's and climbed up many steep mountain's only to find I had climbed the wrong mountain and had to climb back down and across the dry land and up the correct, much taller, much rockier, steeper mountain. All this time not knowing a thing about mountain climbing feeling totally unprepared for this journey in life.

So much of the time feeling alone during the whole escapade.

Of course not having much choice in the matter. We are so we do.

But is that the way it is supposed to be? The way it was meant to be?

I do not believe so .

For me, I have learned that it is not so.
I met Yeshua/Jesus, early in life. This made my journey much easier than it ever would have been had I not known him. IN fact I would not have been able to make it without him.
Still, even having given my life to Yeshua/Jesus I faced circumstances in this world that proved to be quite trying. Over the years, 33 years, I have grown in my relationship in and to Yeshua/Jesus and have learned to lean on him and receive from his Holy Spirit the joy and strength I need to carry on and in this life through all the trials and tribulations that we are promised to face in this life as believers of the Lord Jesus Christ.

Through betrayal and persecution; heart ache and abandonment; abuse of various kinds....I stand here in this life on earth victorio0us through the blood of the Lamb. Not a victim but one who prays for all who have once brought sorrow and sadness, shame and slander; praying for mercy, blessing, peace and reconciliation unto the body of Christ. As to the perfect will of our Heavenly Father.

In perfect peace.

If you want this kind of peace ~ in a world which can only afford ~ instability, insanity and revenge ~ for all kinds of pain, no matter what the cause....Come to Yeshua/Jesus.

He will heal from the inside out. He will give you a peace that the world can not take away.

He will love you like no one has ever love you...fill the empty void in your soul...satisfy that longing in your heart.

Come...he is waiting for you....doesn't matter where you have been, what you have done.
It's no secret to him. He knows who you are...through and through....and he cares for you.....he cares for you.

:)

Life's Answer

I was lost and alone, dazed and confused,

Looking for something exciting and new;

I had done everything I had known to do,

climbed the highest mountain; I’d searched the world through.

Still I had found I hungered to be fed,

For more than this life of grandeur I lead.

It was as if I were driven to find the way,

to where I am now today.

I couldn’t put my finger on it, what it was I heard.

I don’t know that it was one particular word.

All I know is that one-day,

I heard this man speak the most incredible words and say,

“For God so loved the world that he gave his Only Son;”

That moment, I knew what had to be done.

I didn’t wait another moment. I fell down on my knees.

I asked God to forgive me and set me free.

I’m not lost, alone, dazed or confused any more.

I let Jesus in my heart’s door.

My life is exciting and brand new!

I found life’s answer after searching the world through.

Living on the Edge

"Wow"...sometimes all you can say is, "Wow."

When life brings you places, down roads you never expected - Through valleys and desserts you had no clue were in your future. Only to bring you to the edge of a cliff over looking the world you actually thought you were traveling through to begin with.

"Wow," a silent sigh comes yet again from deep within your soul. Heard only by the one who created you whose attention you have drawn, who now stands next to you at the edge of the world.

Oddly enough, though completely unsure how life got you here, (at the edge of this cliff over looking the world you thought you were so other wise already engaged in), you find yourself completely at peace.
This is no surprise to you. You know know why this peace is ruling your heart.

You take a moment, as you think about the chaos in your life and the peace that rules your heart, then you glance over to the man standing next to you. Your creator. Your face just bursts out a smile.

Out of no where a wind, a warm gentle wind blows by you and the one who created you and he smiles. Though he doesn't glance back he just keep looking out over the world. Standing ever so tall, arms crossed over his chest. That's when you notice his eyes are fixed on one thing in particular.

You ask him, "What are you looking at my Lord?"

He doesn't say a word, only points out at the world and as you look intently at where he is pointing the world becomes like a movie. As you focus in on where he is pointing you see the very thing you are going through. The valley, the dessert, all the relationships that need attention (healing and such). Best of all, you see he is there in the valley; he is there in the dessert, he is there with all those you love. No one seems to be aware of his presence as he takes such care to make sure all things work together for their good. But he is there.

Suddenly, again you feel that warm soft wind blow past you and joy fills your heart!
Tears run down your face! You reach over to wrap your arms around this wonderful man...your creator....and you feel such love! It is overwhelming!

When you open your eyes...you are no longer on the edge of the cliff....no longer over looking the world....but on the mountain top. The Sonshine is warm upon your face and there is a beautiful, warm, gentle wind blowing against your face.

Thank you my Lord!

I love you!

You make all beautiful in their time!

Everyone child is your FAVORITE you know it's TRUE

If you are a parent -
You know you can have several children and love them ALL with just as much love.....but that doesn't mean they will all receive the same amount of blessings from you.

Not because you don't want to give them the same amount of blessing as each other, but because they have made themselves unavailable to receive them from you.

A few examples:

Take for instance-
Child#1 -The child who still lives at home and still spends time with you; helps with chores, remembers your special days etc.
Child #2 -The child who has just gone off to college or since moved out on their on and -

a) The one who takes time to return your emails and telephones calls and just calls you on their own for the heck of it! AND comes home on break and when ever they can just to see you.

b) The other child who never answers you emails or phones calls or remembers your special days; pretty much never comes home or keeps in touch any more at all.


Child #3 - Then there is, of course the child who fits some where in between all of these.

NOW.....You love all your children with all your heart. Each one no less than the other. Your desire as a parent is to shower them with blessings to let them know this. However....if they are not around OR available this isn't always possible.

Why? Well.....

Child #1 - This child is easy to bless, (convenient) because they are always around. So it may "seem" like they are being favored. But not really....they just happened to be at the right place at the right time!....With YOU!
Child #2/a - The child who has just gone off to college who takes time to return your emails and telephones calls and just calls you on their own for the heck of it! AND comes home on break and when ever they can just to see you....THIS CHILD is also easy to bless.... just a little harder to GET THE BLESSING TO....because of the distance. But We parents can get creative!


Child #2/b - Now THIS child, the one who never answers you emails or phones calls or remembers your special days; pretty much never comes home any more at all.....Hmmmm...NOT SO EASY to bless....WHY?....As much as a parent desire to bless THIS child it is hard because we don't know if the blessing is actually getting to the child. Since we never hear from the child. So we hesitate and wait to hear from the child....first. Not as a punishment or anything, simply because we don't want to waste a blessing by sending it off and having it get "lost" in the mail and not even know if it reached it destination.

Child #3 -And of course blessing this child is on a case by case basis. Never knowing from week to week, where this child is. Then finding them close to our hearts allows us to shower them in blessings. Always a joy!

Anyone who knows me....knows I am all about analogies.
And ...This one is all about Papa God and us.

Have you ever wondered ... why it seems that some receieve the "blessings " of God in their life so much more than others?

Or

Why there are "seasons" of blessings in our lives?

Or

Why doesn't God just answer my prayer?.... Provide our NEED?.... Heal us?

I was thinking about this very thing just yesterday while I was praying for my family, and the Lord gave me this analogy, about "the family".

The Lord DESIRES to bless each and every one of us the same!.... But where are we?
If we took a moment right now to look deep into our souls, and hearts, could we honestly say we are close to the Lord, sitting quietly at His feet; attentive to HIM and available to receive what He desires to Bless us with?

I know I want to be in a place where I can receive what ever the Lord has for me.

Won't you join me?

"For You"

Love for you all I have

Not one but each I choose

I wish to shower blessing

Desire streams from me to you

I love you all each the same

My desire never shall be undone

Some come and some stay away

Free will is my gift of love

My choice my life eternal

Turn to me and live

By: Amycolleen

Shalom!

Complete Surrender Ecclesiastes 3:7

".....a time to tear and a time to mend."
Ecclesiastes 3:7.

Have you ever noticed that sometimes you can have an old garment that will tear in just the "wrong" way so it can't be sown together successfully?

I mean, hard as you try, as much thread as you use, you can't get the gap to close seamlessly?
If you do go ahead and mend the tear, in the end the garment is either used only as work clothes and ends up tearing again because the mend was not strong enough to hold or it ends up sitting in the closet because the mend ends up being more noticeable than the tear was to begin with, and you are embarrassed to be seen wearing it in public!

Come on! You know what I'm talkin' about....they don't have million dollar non profit thrift store business's from just a handful of poverty stricken people donating their clothes!

That's okay, don't feel too bad, we all do it. :)

I was was really just wanting to make an analogy anyway.

The Lord made a point to use this verse in the Bible.... ".....a time to tear and a time to mend."
I have been thinking about that allot lately in my life. Mostly about the "time to tear" part.
I just here recently got a word from the Lord in my spirit about the ...."time to mend."

Funny thing, it wasn't until I let go.....surrendered to Him; the Lord, about the ... "time to tear."....that's when he started talking to me about, ..."the time to mend."

You see, I just kept thinking and thinking and thinking about the..... "a time to tear."
i.e. Why?...(why me)... What?...(what did "I" do)... How do I fix it?...(what can "I" do to correct things make things like they were)
And then I just plain old feeling sorry for myself........ Now I don't know about all of you, but I have had my fair share of pity parties. Thankfully, the Lord showed up to each and everyone! Arms full of love and grace and mercy! Brought me to my knees every time too! Oh Glory Halleluia!

And

After a few times of those silly parties (sometimes it takes me a while) I started talking to the Lord and asking "Him" what the deal was. You know, Why? .....What?.....How do I fix it?....You know the tear?
(I know what you are thinking, SAME questions. HA!....True...but very different heart attitude and motive and focus) After this encounter with the Lord is when I realized .......once again...

I needed to surrender everything to Him.

So I have....and not long after I began to hear.... "and a time to mend."

God is so good.

We don't always understand Why....What....and just as importantly, WE can't fix it.
Sometimes, the "tear" needs to take place. When that is the case we NEED to LET it. When it is time.....God Himself will bring the mend. HE is Faithful to do it.

Our job is to be love Him and believe Him.

I choose to do so.

I choose to surrender everything to Him....who gave gave everything for me.

Complete surrender

Total death to myself

Nothing left to live for

Except that which you have died for

Come take me as I am

Make me what you will

Burn me up with Holy fire

Every bit of sin and mire

Purify this vessel Lord

Made of silver and gold

Fill my veins with Holy blood

Yeshua’s shed for me

Take me Lord

Make me Lord

All I am meant to be

Nothing less for you

Than that I was meant to be

Now Lord…show me how

I need you to do it

See me through it

I give you all I can

All I am

Complete surrender