Bleeding on the Inside

Fine Art by: Ona Kingdon PWS

                                                                                       

Bleeding on the inside, can anyone see?

Invisible tear drops fall silently

One by one they turn away.

Each without a single word to say.

Divinely given, now taken away;

Each without a single word to say.

    I see the eyes of judgment  looking in

 Excusing my pain by way of sin 

   Watching one by one as they turn away

Each without a single word to say

Whose to know, who can see;

    My life, my love, all that is a part of me?

I carried, I bore, I loved and adored.

Now they say they want nothing more.

One by one they turn away.

Each without a single word to say.

Piercing pain, gasping for breath.

This pain is almost worse than death.

Please! Look at me! I am here!

Can't you see my falling tears?

One by one they turn away.

Each without a single word to say.

Oh dear Lord please help them see.

It's you who have given them to me.

A Vision and A Word

It was a normal morning for me. I was up at 6, getting ready for work. Sitting quietly having a yummy cup of coffee in my comfy prayer chair thinking about all that Holy Spirit had spoken to me through the night. Then something changed. I began to pray. 

Praying in and of itself wasn't out of the norm for my morning routine. It was the visit from Abba Father that rocked my world that morning. 

I began praying as usual for my family and friends. Then while I was praying in the spirit, a sudden Holy Anointing came on me and my prayer focus immediately changed. It changed to intercession for the lost and I felt a crushing grief within my spirit and soul so incredibly heavy that I literally grabbed my chest. Weeping began as I continued to pray in the spirit. Visions of people were flashing through my minds eyes. Then I saw what disturbed me the most. I saw familiar faces. They were believers. I don't know how to explain it other than -  I knew them and I knew they were believers but I don't have any names.

In this vision, I had such sorrow and grief - I could not stop focusing on my fellow brothers and sisters in the Lord who were pictured among all the other unbelievers in the last days. All the others who denied the Lord. 

This intercession seemed to last forever. Although in (our) reality I am sure it was but  a few minutes. When I was able to, I asked the Lord. On my knees, I asked Him about the faces I saw. Why they were there among the unbelievers.

This is the Lord's answer,

"In the last days there will be a great falling away. Just as there will be a great harvest. 

My precious AmyColleen, I have shown you a picture of both. 

The time is soon - All who have chosen to follow me, who are still here in this world, will yet again be called upon to make a choice. Trust in me and my ways, and receive a crown of life or trust in the ways of this ruler of this world and be sealed with his mark and receive death. 

Sadly, there will be many who will choose death over life. For wide is the gate that leads to destruction and narrow is the road that leads to life." 

At this point I fell to my face and cried. Knowing that there would be so many brothers and sisters in the Lord that would fall prey to the deception of the enemy and give into his deadly schemes giving up their lives unto eternal death.

Then Abba Father spoke.

Instantly, all at once, 

I felt peace, 

and a sudden Holy Fear fall down upon me like a heavy soft warm invisible blanket.

"Remember, the harvest. I love you."
Was all he said.

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Brothers and sisters....THIS is serious stuff! 2 Thessalonians 2
There will be people you and I sit next to in CHURCH! People you and I go to lunch with. The Lord is referring to HIS CHURCH, HIS BODY, falling away, ....take a moment and just think about who you see every time you go to a church function, concert, meeting; Now think about the FACT that a GREAT MANY of US will FALL AWAY.


Sobering thought NO?   Not MY words.....This is straight from the Word of God.

The Great Apostasy

2 Thessalonians 2

 ¹ Now, brethren, concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our gathering together to Him, we ask you, ² not to be soon shaken in mind or troubled, either by spirit or by word or by letter, as if from us, as though the day of Christ had come. ³ Let no one deceive you by any means; for that Day will not come unless the falling away comes first, and the man of sin is revealed, the son of perdition, ⁴ who opposes and exalts himself above all that is called God or that is worshiped, so that he sits as God in the temple of God, showing himself that he is God.

Houses of light - Dream

January 3, 2012

It was very early in the morning and I had already been awaken at least three time since 2 o'clock am. Such urgency in my spirit. I can not pin point anything. Each time I wake up I feel  the over whelming need to pray for mercy. So I do and fall back asleep as I do. Each new sleep I am met with yet another dream impressing upon my heart the need for prayer. Personal prayer for me and my loved ones as well as prayer for the body of Christ as a whole. Time is running out.

Then - I have the dream. The dream that leaves it's impression on my heart. On my mind. On my soul. The dream I can not shake. I can not forget.
So simple. Yet so intense. Like all the other dreams lately that I have received form the Lord. It was short and straight to the point.

I was in this dream. At the same time I was not really a part of this dream. I was more of an observer able to move freely through this dream.

This dream was the last of three I had this night/early morning of January 3, 2012. The dream right before this one I was flying through the sky with many of my family (in Christ) and my blood family husband and children, we had been challenged in our faith; persecuted for believing on the Lord Yeshua/Jesus. (the short version) Along with many. many others. We chose to fly high up into the sky and far, far away from our oppressors.

The end of this flying dream brings us to the beginning of the dream I wanted to share. The "Houses of Light" dream.

Suddenly there was a great darkness all around. Like a blanket.The sky had become black. No stars. No moon. There was this horrible, loud noise. It sounded like screaming. A multitude of screams together all at once that just continued. It lasted for a period of time. Then, after a short time of complete darkness I could see very small houses begin to light up within the darkness. One right after the other. As I walked through this dream I could see that these houses, the ones with the lights on, were the homes where the believers were gathered together inside. Other than these houses with lights there was nothing but complete darkness.


The air was cold. There were distant sounds of voices crying out. It was so eerie.


Then...it was as if I was being drawn upwards and away and the land was becoming smaller and smaller.
I was now looking down on the earth from some where in the heavens. 
That's when I heard "His" voice.
 He said,
"Soon. Stay alert - be watchful."
Then I woke up.

A Prayerfully Personalized 3 Minute Scripture Lift

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“I will extol the Lord at all times;

His praise will always be on my lips.

My soul will boast in the Lord;

Let the afflicted hear and rejoice.”

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~ Promises ~

“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;

he delivers them from all their troubles.

The Lord is close to the broken hearted

And saves those who are crushed in spirit.

A righteous man may have many troubles,

But the Lord delivers him from them all;”

“Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the Lord

And he will give you the desires of your heart.”

“Better the little that the righteous have

than the wealth of many wicked.”

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“I desire to do your will, O my God;

your law is within my heart.

I proclaim your righteousness in the great assembly;

I do not seal my lips,

As you know O Lord.

I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;

I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.

I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly.”

“I do not trust in my bow,

my sword does not bring my victory;

but you give me victory over my enemies,

you put my adversaries to shame.

In God I make my boast all day long,

And I will praise your name forever.”

“I waited patiently for the Lord;

he turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

Out of the mud and the mire;

He set my feet on a rock

And gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

A hymn of praise to our God.”

“If the Lord delights in a man’s way,

he makes his steps firm;

though he stumble, he will not fall,

for the Lord upholds him with his hand.”

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“Cast your cares on the Lord

and he will sustain you;

he will never let the righteous fall.”

Be Blessed with every good blessing in our Precious Savior and Lord Jesus!

Scriptures, in order in which they were written, taken from the book of Psalms:

Psalms  34: 1,2,17,18,19 -  37: 3,4,16 -  40:8,9,10, -  44:8,9,10  - 40:1,2,3, -  37:23,24  -  55:22