Where do I start?

Or - Will I?
Yes I will. Of course I will. I am doing it right now.
I have been so much more  contemplative these days.
Yes, more so than I usually am. Which is hard to believe I am sure, for those of you that know me well.
It is a combination of many things - the signs of the times - the life circumstances I find myself in - (namely my health) - and the new place I find the Lord has brought me to. A recipe for major life contemplation.

Honestly though, I  find even my own self doubting or wondering rather, why I even think about half the things I do.
Considering  my thoughts about such things, brings me to realize, I am in a sense teetering on doubting the one I trust with my life. Knowing truly that El-Shaddai has me safely in the palm of His hand and indeed has promised to me - all of my children will follow Him all the days of their lives. How can I possibly spend any time at all in contemplation over anything that incorporates these subject matters? Alas, but I do and I am even now.

Maybe I should explain a bit here. I am not in jeopardy of doubting to as a degree of loosing faith. Goodness no! Never! There is nothing for me, if I have not my faith!  The doubt I am speaking of is a self recognition - a self realization of sorts. I truly believe at this point in my life with God, my walk with the Master Jesus, that I should be able to "know" - to "trust" - to such a degree, in what the Lord has shown me, revealed to me through His word. - all that He has promised me, that I should never have to struggle with my thoughts. (At least with those things I am certain of) You know?
Thoughts like, "I wonder if'...." or ...."Maybe I...." ....or ..."Should I ?..." ..."Did I ?"...
I think you get the point. All of those things I contemplate. All the questions and second guessing. All the doubt and fear.

So when I come here, to this place in life, where I have come so many times before, and find myself mulling over the same issues, the issues that God himself has promised to take care of for me time an time again, yeah - sometimes I feel as though I am slipping into the sin of doubt. It truly is such a fine line for me.





My spirit says "Truly I believe - above all else I believe."
My flesh is so willing. Yet my circumstances have changed and suddenly in my humanness I inadvertently place God, the all knowing, ever loving, creator of the universe. He who created all we can and  all we can not see.



Yes, I some how end up trying to justify placing God in a very small box, just so I can have a reason to worry, be anxious and contemplate.

Wow. Just writing all that makes me feel really ridiculous.

I think in answer to this blog title,  "Where do I start?"
I will change my answer and unlike the first answer, (second sentence in the post), my answer will be, "I will not start."...referring to ranting about my woes.

I have figured out what I was feeling. Considering this, I would  rather say how much I love and adore my Lord who has me close to His heart. I would rather trust and believe all He has promised me.

30,000,000 - locust released over Egypt - Not a good time to be sight seeing for sure!

30,000,000 locust released over Egypt

click HERE to see video!

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A word from Heidi Baker 2/18/13

I have had two distinct dreams about having babies.

I have always believed that the babies were prophetic and spoke of ministries.

Ii just saw this awesome word that Heidi Baker shared not too long ago and  it was very encouraging to me 

so I decided to share it with you as well.

May it bless and encourage you too!

Please let me know if you have had any dreams! Post in the comments section OR you can Email me if you would like me to post a word for you on here that you feel would bless others!

Amycolleen@gmail.com

Dream #1

September 15, 1999

I dreamt I had a baby girl.  

Within one day she learned to roll over, sit up, eat solid food and speak clearly

.She ate a ripe piece of fruit, an orange. I thought she would was going to choke trying to eat at such an early stage in life, but she looked right at me and said,

"Yes Mommy...I ate the orange!"

I had this dream a long time ago - but have never forgotten about it.

In fact I had another dream as well.

Dream #2 

May 23, 2005

In this dream, Dan and I were at home. We were expecting a baby. I was not physically pregnant, but we were anxiously awaiting a delivery none the less. A knock came on the door and Dan opened the door. There was an Angel with a baby in his arms. He handed the baby to Dan. Dan walked towards me and I turned my attention immediately away from the Angel to the new little baby, who was all full of smiles and joy; but only for a second as just as soon as the door had shut there was another knock at the door. I went to open the door and found another messenger with yet another baby in his arms! 

Without saying a word I took the child into my arms; shut the door and walked over to Dan who was holding the our first baby. The second baby that had been delivered, was sound asleep. I was a little surprised and a tad caught off guard. As if I wasn't expecting the second baby. I remember saying to Dan, “What are we going to do with two babies? We were only expecting one?

At that - Dan sat the first baby down on top of the counter and took the sleeping baby from my arms. 

He headed for the beautifully dressed crib we had previously set up for the baby we were expecting. 

He laid the baby down to sleep. Turned to me and said, 

“We will make room, you’ll see. Have I ever failed to provide?"

Meantime, the first baby was sitting up on the counter top.

I panicked and said to Dan, 

“Dan you can’t just put the baby on the counter unsupervised  she could fall off and get hurt.” 

 I reached over and  took her in my arms. She was laughing and smiling. She was so beautiful. Dan and I just kept looking at her and saying how beautiful she was. We were chuckling and playing with her. 

The other baby lay peacefully sleeping in the crib.

Dan  made a humble, no-frills, second crib for the first baby. 

The one we were expecting -  whom we were holding and playing with and enjoying.

The last thing I remember in my dream before waking was thinking to myself,

 “What am I going to do when they both wake up in the middle of the night

 and need to be fed at the same time?” 

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A word from Heidi - In The Last Days - Thus Says the Lord

Things aren't always as they seem

Today's Blog Post

Inspired by the actions of someone who has no idea they have inspired me.

In fact chances are they never will.

Still, I wanted to take a few moments out of my day to pay tribute to them.

Their actions, small as they may be, have literally touched my heart and I dare say  God's too.

So 

  "Thank you  for being the person you are"

For taking a stand.

For not judging the content of a book by the reviews of  others.

Thank you for understanding this truth

Things aren't always as they seem."

Here for your viewing pleasure 

Real life or not! YOU decide!

After all - things aren't always as they seem!

Try this one on for starters!!

A ghost boat!

 I dream of Jeannie? Is she really hoovering? lol

YOU decide!! Let me know what you think!

 Ahhh! I think someone got ahold of  Martin Shorts 

Shrink ray! 

 Wow....totally cool! That is WATER!

Or - IS it?

 Dude - Now THAT would hurt to swallow.

 Real? or No.
What are your thoughts?

 First glance - thoughts

I had to take a second and third look at this one. 

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Hmmmm...Making a point. 

 Natural wonder

HOW do they DO THIS?  

One of my favorites