Ever wonder....

Why? Why your life has turned out the way it has?

Where? Where you were when God handed out the EASY BUTTON for life?

What? What you coulda - shoulda done differently? Or - not?

Who? Who, if anyone has been truly, positively, affected by your life?

Just curious if I was the only one who thought about such things.

Just a weed in the Flower Bed of the Garden of Life.

Every Step of the Way

If I could say what was in my heart, without saying a word

If I could take the years gone by - get you to see them in your minds eye

If I could make my tears disappear with just the stroke of a pen

If I could simply paint on a canvas and change a scene of my life I would

But I can't

I have learned life isn't  that way

I have learned I am not always what I say

I have learned it's much better to rely on G-d than myself

I have learned the Lord would prefer if we would just obey

So I will

As for my heart, no mere words would ever do

I am pleased however, to continue to share with you

Joys and sorrows - trials and victories

Every life is worth living and will have plenty of all of these

Shalom is the key

Jesus is so good to me
He is with me every step of the way

So I leave you with this blessing today
Go with G-d - seek His face
Trust in His Word
&
Be Blessed!

Please tell me why????

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Angry people - why?
I can not tell you enough - or come up with adequate words to describe just how completely unattractive they are.
I would truly like to understand - I mean truly understand - why they are so very angry - and all the time. Also I would like to know the reason why these angry people feel they are so justified in being so angry.
I want to understand because (plain and simple) I am sick and tired of all the anger. Every day. Everywhere I go. Anger.  For no apparent reason. Anger. I start my day off with a spring in my step and a song in my heart. Off to work I go and first call I get (sometimes before I actually have a chance to answer a call) in comes the screaming anger. Literally yelling - at me - over their issue - their mistake. Vular verbiage unfit for a drunken sailor being spewed from their mouth at me. Wow. So unattractive.

It's not just at work either. It's everywhere. One would think it's people lost and without God.
Yeah, that's it! ummmm, nope. You see, I see the anger in my siblings in Christ too. Sadly, this is true.

I can honestly say I do not know the circumstances that have spawned so much anger. We all live such different lives. It can be so many different things for each person. It can be unresolved grief gnawing away at your heart or unforgiveness deep inside. It could be fear. Fear of anything these days. Fear of losing one's economic security to a loved one or health. There are so many different circumstances  that can underwrite the emotion of anger.  We may not know ourselves why we feel so hostile.

Still, in this uncertainty there is  one thing I do know for sure.  What we all need to calm the fear and alleviate the anger!

We need 

Love  - Forgiveness - Joy

Choose Love

Choose Forgiveness

And

Joy Will Come

This is a recipe. A very special recipe. Which needs all all three ingredients to work just right.

Here's why. 

If we have love, then we can have, give and live forgiveness. Then the joy will come.

I truly believe (and have learned by life experience this to be truth)  that is needed to rid our lives of so much anger.

Shalom

Sometimes I just wish I could..................

Sometimes I just wish the Lord would show up in person. You know?
I mean. Come on. Can anyone out there reading this understand where I am coming from?
It's not that I don't appreciate the awesome, prophetic dreams that in their own right have become an intimate love language from the Lord Himself to me. I do. I really do.
also not that I don't appreciate and feel incredibly blessed when I am driving down the road, or walking down the street or even just sitting quietly in my prayer chair and suddenly and immersed in His presence. No warning. Just swallowed up in His love. Filled with His peace. Unable to move from the weight of His GLORY. I realize these are manifestations of the Lords incredible love for me and His presence in my life. Sometimes though, like right now, when I am being lead by the Lord Himself along a very narrow and specific pathway, one that is twisted in and around several others pathways similar to itself in physical appearance but so very different in ending destination. I find myself wishing the Lord would just "show up" in person as I am traveling on my path. Kinda like He did for the disciples. So I could "just ask" Him straight up, "Do I do this? Should I say that? Is it this person or that person?" Instead of having to lean on my faith all the time.
I know that probably sounds so totally ridiculous to whoever  is reading this right now. It almost sounds ridiculous to me. haha . I guess I am just tired I guess. I am tired and I don't want to stop moving forward and I don't want to make any mistakes either.

I came back from a retreat just a couple days ago. It wasn't a resting retreat. I served the entire time. The Lord used every ounce of every moment to speak to me. So that was really good. Of course now I am exhausted and I truthfully need some serious time to process everything. I don't expect that to happen until probably next week.

Well, This was different. Me writing about pretty much nothing nothing. But, that was what was on my heart. Wanting to see Jesus...needing to talk to Him. In person. About so much.