Something I Realized Today....

The more lost I get get in Him ~ the less I find myself realizing that I am in another place ~ a distant place ~ a place many don't understand ~ some find odd ~ and some altogether completely avoid.


Still....I find it doesn't seem to matter to me that I find myself in this place, often times alone...with only my Lord by my side. I am completely satisfied....at peace....happy.


Lost in Him

So Here I am

Okay so wow,         I am writing this blog post for total selfish reasons.        Yeah.

Basically, I don’t expect anyone to really read it and if they do I would be utterly shocked if they took anything away from it. None the less, I find I am compelled to type away. So type I will.

You see, I am in a place in life I never expected to be. A place I would never expect anyone to have to be. Heck, I don’t know in all my years if I have ever known anyone personally who has been in my shoes. I do remember years ago during one of my Women of Destiny meetings, a woman giving a testimony asking for prayer because she was in a “similar” situation in her life. However, as I recall even her situation was nothing like what I am faced with today. It is simply unbelievable.

So, here I am.

I am child of the King. I have been wash in the Blood of the Lamb. Cleansed and made new. I have never been so in love with my Creator – walked so close to the Shepherd – had such revelation of the reality of the Eternal realm – Life with God here and in the New Heaven to come and yet – my precious loved ones are so far away. Not just geographically, but somehow the enemy has been able to seduce them and in such a way that they believe they are walking in the truth. All the while they are actively seeking to bring division and complete separation to their family - all in the name of God and his righteousness.  I am still in complete shock. How – why –after a life time of memories would – could –you divorce your mother and sisters?  We’re not talking abuse or neglect or never being around. It’s like having a major limb suddenly sawed off of your body with no anesthesia, the reason given, “Because someone else is more deserving of the arms and legs than you.”  This is not okay. This is straight forward deception from the enemy and that is why it is so heart wrenching and mind boggling.

So after the initial shock hit me and my family (outta nowhere like an earthquake in the middle of the night) and I was able to pull myself together enough to sit still in the Lord’s presence, Holy Spirit reminded me of some dreams He had given me that I wrote down in my journals. (*you know it is amazing how the Lord will speak to you years before something BIG will happen in your life – you may wonder – “what in the world does this dream mean?” just be patient, if it is from the Lord, it will come to pass) I read my old journals and low and behold the Lord had given me several dreams warning me about all three of my sons and their father’s behavior, long before this ever took place.  The really awesome part about this is that the Lord also gave me scriptures and promises that He (the Lord) was going to bring the Spirit of Truth into their lives. I only needed to be willing to believe – to pray and to love.

Of course, that sounds allot easier than it really is.  I already have had one intervention from the Lord – in the middle of the night, thankfully.

I had a dream, which I am not going to share in detail; however, I will say this. It was so perfect and straight to the point that when I woke up I was able to leave my sons at the feet of Jesus. This time – without taking them back and I have peace knowing He (Jesus) is working in them. The Lord has heard my prayers. Every last one of them I have prayed. Oh, and believe you, me I pray at least 4-5 times each and every day for the healing and deliverance and restoration of this family. Everyone in this family - all 10 of us and the grandkids as well!

I am living in a world most would not understand. In fact, I don’t know that I could even find the words to describe the world I live in. I am many things in this life here on earth - I am a Handmaiden of the Most High God, a wife, a mother, a grand-mother, a prayer warrior, a friend, so much more. My life has been very full and at the same time very empty. Still I know I need to empty myself even more and fill myself even more.

I can’t explain the pain I feel. Having my sons – the boys I love and have raised and known for their entire life, tell me they don’t want to be my sons anymore. Or, explain how it hurts me to know that my sons have been so deceived that they would shun their sisters. Toss them to the way side. To see my precious girls and the pain they feel in the betrayal  they are faced with as their brothers choose to sever their lives with them – and in the “name of God and righteousness”.  This is surely an emotion that the human language has yet to put any such words to.  

Yet, in the midst of this tornado of dissolution I have found peace. 

Or has it found me?

I know in whom I believe and He has kept me in perfect peace. I am able to cover my precious loved ones in the Blood of the Lamb each day. I am able to pray for them for the revelation of truth - for forgiveness and deliverance of generational curses. I would never be able to do this on my own. Frankly I am amazed myself, once again at the wonderful grace of God in my life! I pray for the love, grace, forgiveness, mercy and compassion to flow over into each one of my precious family members lives. May the healing power over come them – May Holy Spirit take control and the promise of God to turn all things around for the good of those that love Him and are the called according to HIS purpose be made manifest in all our lives!

Lord have your way in our lives!

 You ARE the God of reconciliation!

 Come - live through me – Amy Colleen

Great take over of 2012 - dream

< April 14, 2012

It is no secret the Lord speaks to me through my dreams, prophetically, about my life mostly. However here lately especially these last few years I have been receiving more and more dreams with direct reference to the Body of Christ, the Church and in general the world around me.

I have shared some of them publicly. There are two that come to mind that seem to reference the same time line as the dream I had this last night.  (Three Crocodiles!;Missiles Every where!;They're Coming!)

Last night I had what I refer to as a nighttime interactive vision-dream.  Somewhat different than a regular dream in that I was IN the dream and a part of the ream but no one in the dream was aware of my presence. I was able to move in and around throughout the dream freely.

In the beginning of the dream I was in a very large, I mean huge church building. It contained several churches inside of it.  In fact it was 7 (seven) stories tall. It was dark inside. There was a chill in the air that came from the outside through the broken windows.

I was on the first floor. There were few people standing around looking bewildered.

I walked over to the staircase that went to the upper floors. It was a huge sweeping, winding, staircase. One like you might imagine seeing in the movie “Gone with the Wind”, or one of those Southern mansions. I began to make my way to the second floor.

As I got to the second floor I noticed there was a foyer area at the top of the stair case and a room or church rather. The foyer was a mess, a terrible mess. Like something or someone had literally destroyed it. This church was an old fashioned church with statues and such. They were broken and thrown to the ground. There was only a hand full of people in the church itself.

I continued on up the staircase to the third floor and found the same circumstances only a different type of church building. This was a very modern church. High tech in every respect and everything had been thrown to the ground and trampled on. Sparks were flying in the air. Again, there was maybe four or five people in the actual church.

When I got to the next floor I found the same thing. Only this church had a broken down merry - go – round and a cotton candy machine than had been turned over in front of the doors to the church. There were a handful of people at this level inside the actual church.

Each floor that I reached up to the seventh floor had the very same thing – but – different. Their foyer had been completely destroyed and all that was left was one room where the members of the church gather together to pray.  There were only a few from each church -  on each floor  left who stayed after their churches had been destroyed.

I walked around in utter disbelief. I felt so sad.   Sad.  I don’t know how to explain it other than that. It was utterly heart breaking.

Then after I reached the top, the seventh floor, I heard something. 
At the very same time I heard it – I felt it –It was a sudden warm wind.
Then I saw it.
A huge tear drop fell down from the sky, into the broken down church building.
It was like refreshing shower upon everyone in the place. Something I simply can not even begin to explain. Sheer and utter beauty beyond human description!

I believe it was a tear falling from heaven.
I don’t know how to explain it. I don’t know that I can, other than what I just did.

Then -
Suddenly -  I was outside.

I was in the street. I was walking down the street. Everything seemed normal. I approached the end of the street and had to turn around and go back up the street.
I saw a sign that seemed to "pop-up" out of nowhere right in from of me.


 It read “11-2012”-this way --à "
So I continued up the street. At first I didn’t notice anything. THEN, I noticed the street itself was not paved anymore. The same exact street I just walked down moments before had changed to a dirt road.
Then I noticed there were woman everywhere were wearing Hijabs (head covers).
As I continued walking I saw to my right a group of young men and boys throwing sticks and rocks at Christians. They were using all kinds of profanities against the name of Jesus and threatening to “turn them in”. 
Turn them into the authorities to be arrested.

  This sign says it all. I do not believe we can co-exist. We would all have to be willing to love each other. As well as be willing and able to forgive each other and let go of the past.  Sadly - I do not see that happening. 

The End

This song by Matthew West pretty much sums up my day.  I only wish I had actually attempted to "step one foot in the ocean" - and "find a sunny spot so I could work on my tan" yeah.  Instead I headed to work as I do each and every day.  


Still I thought I would share this song with you as I have listend to it just about every day for the last two weeks on my way to work and it has brought a smile to my face and a chuckle to my soul! Hopefully it will do the same for you!


Blessings and Shalom in our Lord and Savior - AmyColleen

It was raining when I woke up this morning

So, to escape it I went back to bed

But then the rain started leaking through the ceiling

And pretty soon it was pouring on my head

Sometimes it follows you home

Like an old stray dog, it won't leave you alone

Chorus:

It's not the end 

The end of the world

It's just another day depending on grace

It's not the end

The end of the world

It's just another day, don't sleep it all away

So I jumped into my car and hit the freeway

Found a sunny spot so I could work on my tan

But just as soon as I stepped one foot in the ocean

From out of nowhere it came pouring down again

Sometimes it rains all over your parade

It's like you're reaching for the sun, and you're landing in the shade

Bridge:

Well the moral of this story is

Sometimes life takes so much more than it gives

But the one who makes the air I breathe

Is the one who'll fix the ceiling when it starts to leak

It may look like the end but it's only the beginning

It's not the end

Well it's not the end

Still not the end

It's not the end

I bet you wonder when this song's gonna end

But it's not the end

'Cause I'm singing this song and I get to decide when it's the end

And it's not the end

Well, it's almost the end

I guess you could say it's nearing the end

But it's not the end

It's not the end

It's not the end

It's almost the end

Okay, I think it's the end

Written by Matthew West, Sam Mizell and Chance Scoggins (c) 2003 Word Music, Inc./Westies, Inc. Music Publishing, admin. by Word Music, Inc.; BMG Songs, Inc., admin. by BMG Music Publishing, Inc.; Chance-a-lot Music (ASCAP). All rights reserved. Used by permission. International copyright secured.