Wow. So I never really thought I would be here. In life that is. In this place.
I mean I just turned 50. I never really thought about what it was gonna be like before it happened. Not seriously anyway. It may have come up in passing in a general conversation about turning 50. As for me turning 50 and what changes might accompany this landmark year, eh, I honestly didn't expect any. I just figured life would pretty much continue on as it always had. NOT!
Seems like I just woke up one morning 50 years old and everything was different.
You know, I pictured myself with grand kids bought now. (I have them) I pictured myself with an awesome church family (I have a church family) coming over during the holidays and what not. Being active on the mission field. Having my kids friends over during college break. Driving down to visit my grown kids and grand kids. I mean isn't that what you do when you have grand babies?
Well, that is not what happened. Now I know life doesn't always turn out like we plan. For Sure!
Look at the Apostle Paul! - Come on now! - I don't think he was planning on spending all that time in prison when he was running around in his early years as Saul. Or even after his conversion....seriously. THINK about it. Paul was human. Think he may have grown a wee bit weary of those prison cells? All the rats and damp cold, rock hard floors? OK! I know I am NOT Paul! I am not living on the floor of those nasty prisons caves....but....my point here is RELATIVITY....and I am making my point for not just ME but for YOU as well!
You see sometimes life doesn't always turn out like we think it will. Like we HOPE it will. Like we PRAY it will.
Look at Joseph in the Bible. Look at Job. Look at King David. Look at Esther. Look at ANYone in the Bible....really. We as human beings have a way of idolizing people. Making them more than what they really are. Bottom line is that God is the only one who is good, who is perfect with out the cleansing blood of His Son Jesus....we are sinners all the same. Everyone of us the same! The lives of the people in the Holy Scripture/Bible are in there for us the get encouragement. To help us to walk holy lives before God....by the grace of God in the covering of the blood of Jesus.
Now you think of anyone you like. There are too many for me to list. I am certain they did not expect their lives to turn out the same way it did....
i.e. "The way it did in accordance with the word of God."
For when God has your life in His hands...God always has His way.
and it is always the better way. Sometimes we get in the way and that can slow thing down a bit. However if we humble ourselves before God and make things right with Him, HE WILL turn things around for our good and get us back on track again. That is a promise to us from Him.
So, no. I didn't expect to be here. Where I am. Instead of being in the mission field myself I am praying for and supporting those in the mission field. I do have grand kids. Although I have yet to hold or see them in person. This is heart breaking, I won't lie. This is where I need to draw strength from Our Great Comforter - Holy Spirit and from the comfort that I receive comfort those that also mourn in like heartache. My house is becoming emptier by the day which is the opposite of what I had pictured in my heart. (children and friends and grand children visiting) So in faith my house will be a house of prayer and I will open it up. It is hard when you have a broken heart to reach out to help heal another. I do, have a church family, then again I am not close to anyone there either. THIS is where I have decided what better way to fill my empty heart and house with laughter than to open myself and my house up for the holidays!
Writing this was not easy. That's okay. As I have said more than once on here.
When I write this blog it is not for me. I know there is someone else who needs to hear this!
I will leave you with a Psalm of comfort!
Blessings of Shalom peace in Yeshua HaMashiach
AmyColleen
A song of ascents.
Psalm 121
1 I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
where does my help come from?
2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.
3 He will not let your foot slip—
he who watches over you will not slumber;
4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
will neither slumber nor sleep.
5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;
6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.
7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;
8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS
a song
Sleepless nights the Lord spends on you.
Watching and waiting to see what you'll do,
When times get tough to see where you'll go,
And all the time, all the time, he wants you to know.
That, sleepless nights the Lord spends on you.
He's always there to see you through.
Neither slumber nor sleep will He ever do.
Because; the Lord is watching over you.
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When you think it's over and you've given your all.
Just look to the Lord and give him a call.
He'll be there for you. He'll see you through.
He never sleeps. He never sleeps.
He's too busy watching over you.
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Sleepless nights the Lord spends on you.
Ever keeping all harm far from you.
Watching your life. Seeing you through.
Yes, the Lord is watching over you.
The Lord, he's watching over you.
Copyright June 2001 All rights reserved
By: Amy Colleen Klapp (song)
