Fasting, praying, weeping, and now writing... Still I am not done . But this is a start.
Today has been one of the most difficult I have had to endure in a very long time.
It plain ol' started out bad. You know, the kinda day where you wish you could have a do over? I had a terrible time sleeping last night. So much on my heart. Then when I finally did get to sleep the alarm woke me up extra early and I couldn't get back to sleep and that left me with a migraine! The hot water heater had turned off in the night and there was NO hot water for my much needed shower - ugh - and by the time I finally made it out to work (15 minutes later than I should have) the trash truck was parked right in front of my driveway loading up my neighbors spring cleaning 12 loads of trash! I had to wait 7 precious minutes for them to move the truck! Which may not seem like very long to many but at my "call center" job could mean the difference between the unemployment line or not!
Well I did eventually make it to work - miraculously on time - exactly on time - ( we have a grace period of 5 minutes). Thank you Lord!
No sooner had I logged in did the calls start streaming in....oh my....between the angry people calling in and my lack of sleep and my broken heart I think I have come to the conclusion I need a career change!
I am hitting the street and becoming a Blues Singer!
I mean I have what it takes. Seriously. Even my husband agrees with THAT part. I can * S I N G * the Blues like no bodies business! I certainly have enough original material to keep the "soul" factor going that is for sure! So, hey, why not...?
Take a look at David. As in KING David from the Bible. Look at HIS writings.
He was pretty much a biblical blues musician -yeah -I think so.
My blues....would have a huge variance in range and would be more of a reaching out to heaven and God....."true blues".....But like King David, always at the end of his Psalms, he brings it around to what he knows is truth, God delivers.
That is what I would do.
Yep....that is what I would do.
Love has got me down. Not *romantic* love. Just relational love. Between people in the body of Christ.
The love of my fellow brother and sister made in the likeness of God Almighty.
The love of my own children who I carried and loved and raised and prayed over their whole life.
Love that should be - Love that is- Love that has been stolen by the mirror of deception temporarily to be returned to me one day by my Papa God.
Yes LOVE has got me down.......Love has got me down....
I got love sick blues for all of you-s.....love sick blues....
Love has got me down
Can't you see you simply need love - love - love
Don't you know you gotta let go of bitter love - love - love
There 's no such thing as holding back
There's no such thing as choosing who
There's no such thing there's only love- love -love
There' only love - love - love
If you love me
If you love me
If you love me
Cause I---am the vine
You are the branch
I love everyone
and you have to take a stand......have to take a stand
Love - love -love-there's only love - love - love
My love for you -
Where's your love for me?
I'm in the one you don't want to see -
that's me
John 15
Complete Jewish Bible (CJB)
15 “I am the real vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 Every branch which is part of me but fails to bear fruit, he cuts off; and every branch that does bear fruit, he prunes, so that it may bear more fruit. 3 Right now, because of the word which I have spoken to you, you are pruned. 4 Stay united with me, as I will with you — for just as the branch can’t put forth fruit by itself apart from the vine, so you can’t bear fruit apart from me.
5 “I am the vine and you are the branches. Those who stay united with me, and I with them, are the ones who bear much fruit; because apart from me you can’t do a thing. 6 Unless a person remains united with me, he is thrown away like a branch and dries up. Such branches are gathered and thrown into the fire, where they are burned up.
7 “If you remain united with me, and my words with you, then ask whatever you want, and it will happen for you. 8 This is how my Father is glorified — in your bearing much fruit; this is how you will prove to be my talmidim. [disciples]
9 “Just as my Father has loved me, I too have loved you; so stay in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will stay in my love — just as I have kept my Father’s commands and stay in his love. 11 I have said this to you so that my joy may be in you, and your joy be complete.
12 “This is my command: that you keep on loving each other just as I have loved you. 13 No one has greater love than a person who lays down his life for his friends. 14 You are my friends, if you do what I command you.
15 I no longer call you slaves, because a slave doesn’t know what his master is about; but I have called you friends, because everything I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose me, I chose you; and I have commissioned you to go and bear fruit, fruit that will last; so that whatever you ask from the Father in my name he may give you. 17 This is what I command you: keep loving each other!
