A post from "Anonymous"

The closer I get to you

So he hates me

He doesn’t listen to me

He screams and yells

And words I would never want my worst enemy to have to hear come like a title wave crashing over me

HELP!!!!!

Oh Lord…..how much can my heart take of this?

What have I done to him?

Nothing

Still….He becomes colder and colder and colder

“YOU! YOU! YOU!” ….is all he answers back…..when I try to figure out why

I want to run away….I can’t run away

Deep down inside…I know the reason why…..it’s you

The closer we get; you and I; the more angry he gets

It all comes out….everything about anything about nothing

It doesn’t matter

There’s so much anger

So much anger

Anger

So much Anger

He hates me

He hates you

The closer I get to you

You know sometimes you just need to write.

This is one of those times.
It's the "Holidays!" Oh yippee!... :)

Or is it yippee? I men, come on can I get real here? What is so "yippee" about it? My days are long, (as normal) my kids are busy as usual and I don't hear from them .... so if I think about it being the "holidays" and this time ....supposed to be "special and all" that actually makes me kinda sad. Then there's the fact that I have a some what religiously blended house hold, (if you will ) goodness knows that doesn't make it any easier to celebrate and experience spontaneous "joy". (Again, it actaully has the opposite affect and in turn makes me work all the harder to bring about the Christmas/ Hanukkah spirit)

Just ...."being that it is the holidays" that itself doesn't magically transpose the season into the cheerfulness that is portrayed constantly every where on the billboards and radio and T.V. and even church. (although I wish it did!)

Instead for me and I am quite sure for many other, the holidays is a time of sadness and loneliness and even a time time that many may wish to come and go in great haste.

There are so many reasons, that we may never know of.....so many friends and even church family....neighbors....strangers on the street; who have no one during this time of year to share ... "The Holidays" with....but would NEVER tell anyone. Sad-but true. Others who are not alone, that we can see.... but just have broken hearts and broken families.

Let's take the time during this blessed Holiday season........to reach out.....in prayer FIRST. To be sensitive in spirit and remember our neighbors....our church family.....and those we see but do not know during the time we are enjoying ourselves with those we love.

I am thinking of a dear dear precious, woman of God right now.....who would not want me to mention her name (I know) so humble, so giving.....she is spending he Christmas with the poorest of the poor here in the USA. She herself has been forgotten by her own. I love you sweet sister! I wish I could join you! You will be in my prayers!

Happy

Chanukkah

Merry Christmas!

Tough Love from Above

Wow.....okay.....I may get some hits on "this" one but I just gotta say something about it.

The spirit of religion is getting just a little too outta hand here these days.....or maybe it's the need/desire to be "right"....or a little of both.

When I say "Religion" you may think of a particular denomination i.e. Catholic's or Lutheran's or Baptist's or something of that nature...but I am not talking about a certain denomination I am referring to religion as is defined in the Webster's dictionary i.e. 1) a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe. 2) a strong belief in a supernatural power or powers that control human destiny.

Don't misunderstand me here, it is good; in fact I believe necessary for us as followers of Yeshua/Jesus to have "religion" (as previously defined above). However when this becomes the guide in our life and measuring stick by which we make all our choices rather than our "relationship" with Yehsua/Jesus THAT'S when it becomes problematic.

For instance; the word of God ....the Torah...the Holy Scripture is given to guide us through life's journey and be a tool and an answer book if you will for every question we might encounter; should we take the time to read/study it.
Much of the time we need only find the answer once and when the situation, be it a common one, comes up again we will know already how to handle it because we have read the Holy Scripture and know of it's wisdom and instruction on that given subject.

*** Example - A group of believers are gathering for prayer and worship. - The question is, "Should you go and join them in fellowship? According to the word of God?"....... Well...the BIBLE says....Yes. (Hebrews 10:25)

Please tell me , why must we "PRAY" about such things?

Now I can understand praying about many, many other things. But praying about whether or not we should come together and pray one with another....support each other...and worship the Lord?.....Oh Pllllleeeease!

We have the free will NOT to go. But that is where it stops. If we think God is telling us NOT TO GO support someone who is on the front lines of ministry and is asking us for prayer....and telling us NOT to worship with each other and encourage each other when the Word of God clearly tells us otherwise?....NOPE....Unless God has told us to GO some where else to do something of like value....we ARE HEARING WRONG.

AND AGAIN AmyColleen will say....time to GET TOGETHER CHURCH! STOP living APART and START acting LIKE ONE BODY!

If I have to live alone to do and say what I am called to do and say....I will.... and I won't be the only one. This is the season to love....and not yourself but everyone else.

Let just say for the record.

From experience.....it hurts....allot.

Thankfully.....the great physician is with you all the way!

Shalom,

AmyColleen