The Fire Within: 06/08/13

6/8/13

I will never......

Okay, so I will never fully understand some people.

Yes, I said fully understand. Fully, because, honestly in so many ways, I do. I do I understand the very ones I say I will never understand. It's just that I only understand in part, not in whole.

I mean, I see - I hear - I take in.
I bring it to the Lord in prayer. Holy Spirit speaks. He teaches. I am, at times even, (when that seems not enough) given divine understanding. Still - I have to say - I will never fully understand some people.

Perhaps it is my own stubbornness that keeps me in this place. Just far enough back from total understanding. Just far enough that it disallows empathy to sprout up within me. Almost like a protective force field around my heart takes over. Pushing away anything that gets too close.

One I am not consciously aware of. It's in a place of "half way there" that I find myself in a place of feeble humanness. Somehow, I find justification, subconsciously of course, in holding back on total understanding - which paves the way to acceptance which then opens the door to unconditional love -( 1 Corinthians chapter 13 style love) which in turn brings full understanding. Got kind of a full circle thing going on there.

I don't mean to be so hard hearted towards these folk - (the ones I claim I will never fully understand)
I do truly love these people.
It is my desire to be completely filled with the complete love of G-D towards them so I can move in empathy making the way for understanding and unconditional love.
It's just that I am actually having a real moment in my own life - the Lord has been speaking to me allot just recently about this very thing.
I felt the need to utilize my little corner of the WorlWideWeb to vocalize. That simple. :)

Hmmm
Realizing at this moment that pretty much no one reading this is gonna what I am talking about! lol

Oh well..... It won't be the first time!

Hey if you read this and it makes sense to you - possibly - in a world of wonder - even blesses you - Would you please leave a comment and let me know?

There was a time, long ago when I first started this blog - People would leave a smile or a comment. I had maybe 1 to 10 hits a day. Now, unbelievably (to me) I have anywhere from 30 to 400 hits a day on this lil ol' blggity thing! :) But never so much as one comment...

I have actually given thought to closing down the blog....as....I don't do this for me.

BUT - I see how many people read it - so I don't stop.

But it would be kinda nice to hear from ya a'll!

Sooooo------Shalom! --------- I loves ya!!! I pray for you too!! Don;t know your names but G-D does!

Have an awesome week!!
AmyColleen