Sometimes I just wish the Lord would show up in person. You know?
I mean. Come on. Can anyone out there reading this understand where I am coming from?
It's not that I don't appreciate the awesome, prophetic dreams that in their own right have become an intimate love language from the Lord Himself to me. I do. I really do.
also not that I don't appreciate and feel incredibly blessed when I am driving down the road, or walking down the street or even just sitting quietly in my prayer chair and suddenly and immersed in His presence. No warning. Just swallowed up in His love. Filled with His peace. Unable to move from the weight of His GLORY. I realize these are manifestations of the Lords incredible love for me and His presence in my life. Sometimes though, like right now, when I am being lead by the Lord Himself along a very narrow and specific pathway, one that is twisted in and around several others pathways similar to itself in physical appearance but so very different in ending destination. I find myself wishing the Lord would just "show up" in person as I am traveling on my path. Kinda like He did for the disciples. So I could "just ask" Him straight up, "Do I do this? Should I say that? Is it this person or that person?" Instead of having to lean on my faith all the time.
I know that probably sounds so totally ridiculous to whoever is reading this right now. It almost sounds ridiculous to me. haha . I guess I am just tired I guess. I am tired and I don't want to stop moving forward and I don't want to make any mistakes either.
I came back from a retreat just a couple days ago. It wasn't a resting retreat. I served the entire time. The Lord used every ounce of every moment to speak to me. So that was really good. Of course now I am exhausted and I truthfully need some serious time to process everything. I don't expect that to happen until probably next week.
Well, This was different. Me writing about pretty much nothing nothing. But, that was what was on my heart. Wanting to see Jesus...needing to talk to Him. In person. About so much.
