Don't Ever Doubt

The Love of a Mother

You know, I am a lot of things in life, true enough.

However none of these things closer or dearer to my heart than being a Mother.

I remember even as a child that was all I aspired to be. Oh I know in these dark days so many look down at this vocation as "ONLY" a Mother. Personally I think of it as one of the highest callings in life!

I remember my own Mother saying to me, "All I ever wanted to be was a Mother." I also remember how it changed our then strained relationship and my life. 

She too was many things in life. Mostly because life demanded she be. Isn't that true these days as well? Aren't all Mother's  true multi-tasker's? 

A full time Mother is a full time house cleaner. A full time baby sitter/nanny, chef, taxi driver, counselor, best friend and drill sergeant all rolled up in one to her kids. While at the same time a lover and best friend to her husband and the list goes on.....

Still we Mother's are not perfect. We try . Give our best. We get it wrong. Well, in the sense that we call our kids by the wrong name when we are upset. We can never remember the right  way to say things to not upset them and of course, not keeping up with the generational verbiage. (boy can that  be embarrassing!) On a more serious note, yes there are times when Mother's fall short. When they do things that hurt children. I can neither understand nor excuse a  Mother's actions that are incomprehensible.

However, when it comes to a life of raising children. Day by day. Loving and giving of yourself. Everything you have. Putting your children before everyone else. 
No one loves like a Mother.
I agree.
As the saying goes,
"Don't get between a Ma'ma and her baby!" 
Believe me that is true no matter the age of the child.

I guess what I am saying is. Don't ever question your Mother's love for you.
Especially if you have a relationship with her.

Talk to your Ma'ma

She loves you 

If We Only Knew

If we only knew and if we only really believed.

It's been 40 years this June since I began my incredible journey with G-d.

Wow.

Looking at my life now and looking back at my life 10, 20 and 30 years ago. I see the power of prayer at work. I see the hand of G-d moving. I also see my faith where it was then and where it is now.

My words were so FULL of empty passion when I was first saved.

Oh I had zeal. No doubt. I am not saying it wasn't with merit. I was truly lost and truly found. It is the years of substance that I was lacking that have found me some 40 years later. These years of heart ache and betrayal. Years of fortune and famine. Years of sickness and sadness. Years of total utter dependence upon my creator for everything for my survival. My time in the desert. These years that have brought me to where I am today.

So for all who have asked.

This is how and this is how  long it took me to become who I am today.

It truly is nothing of my doing.

I would not have chosen this path for myself. Though I am glad I have walked it. I truly feel Yeshua
has carried me most of the way.
Every day I strive to be more like him.


I recently had a revelation during a prayer time with the LORD. I was asking him "how you do it?"

You know? He lived his life here the whole time as G-d and yet never gave up and left us. He followed through with his plan to lay his life down. Sacrificed his own life for us so we could have eternal life with him. ....Incredible!... I know "I" would not have been able to follow through, just sayin'.

Lord....I want to live a life like that...like you...I want that kind of love...selfless love.

Anyway, as I was talking to the LORD that's when I realized it..... Yeshua not only was forsaken by all he forsook all as well.

There were two parts to it.

My whole life I had always heard and read just one part. That I needed to forsake everything and follow Yeshua.

Well suddenly my heart leaped outta my chest as I realized what the last 40 years in my life has all been about. Or perhaps has not been about.
It wasn't just about me. (like the enemy would like me to believe) Ruach HaKodesh/Holy Spirit has been working in me all along.
In order to make me more like my Master, my LORD, my Messiah, my G-d....I needed to share in his sufferings also. 
All along my G-d was answering my prayers!

"Rather, to the extent that you share the fellowship of the Messiah’s sufferings, rejoice; so that you will rejoice even more when his Glory is revealed."  1 Peter 4:13

"Yes, I gave it all up in order to know him, that is, to know the power of his resurrection and the fellowship of his sufferings as I am being conformed to his death." Phil 3:10

*Oh I was so excited you have no idea!*

You see, with Yeshua it's opposite of us so we don't think of it quite the same so it's easier to oversee it as a necessary step in becoming like him. 

However

Make no mistake it is  necessary to be forsaken by all if we want to be like him.

Yeshua, forsook all  when he left his crown on his throne in heaven to come to earth and live as you and I do. To give his life as a sacrifice for us so we would not have to die but live! And live eternally with him!

This is not easy nor fun. It is in fact painful. Just take a moment to think about all that Yeshua left behind to come into this world. Be born, raised as a human, then go through all he went through. Tempted in everything yet never having sinned. Then beaten beyond human recognition and then nailed and hung on a tree in the hot sun to die. (this is putting it lightly)
Yeshua, was G-d. (is G-D) He left his throne of his own choice. He could have chosen  NOT  to have gone through with all of this. Instead he chose to. For us. Out of love. He forsook his divinity. His Godliness and his Heavenly Father turned away from him. His own father forsook him.

Yeshua gave up everything. Everything. For us. And everyone turned their backs on him. everyone. Still, he followed through until the end spending three days in hell with HaSatan. So he retrieve the keys to death, hell and the grave so anyone who believes on him could would not have to die but have eternal life through and in him. Instead of being utterly destroyed. Which we so deserve.
click here  for full verse >---->John 3:16

Let us all make no mistake. There is a choice to be made.
Follow Yeshua/Jesus. Or not. 
From his mouth,
"Those who are not with me are against me, and those who do not gather with me are scattering."
Matthew 12:30
There is no middle ground.
"So, because you are lukewarm, neither cold nor hot, I will vomit you out of my mouth!" 
Revelation 3:16


Well Yeshua DID say -

 “Go in through the narrow gate; for the gate that leads to destruction is wide and the road broad, and many travel it;  but it is a narrow gate and a hard road that leads to life, and only a few find it." 

Matt 7:13-14

My last 40 years Tough...and FaNtAsTiC !

The reward, however, is beyond compare!

Both here and in the life to come! Though I did not choose my path, had I to do it over?
Knowing what I know now, I would.

“But when that day and hour will come, no one knows — not the angels in heaven, not the Son, only the Father.  For the Son of Man’s coming will be just as it was in the days of Noah.  Back then, before the Flood, people went on eating and drinking, taking wives and becoming wives, right up till the day Noah entered the ark;  and they didn’t know what was happening until the Flood came and swept them all away. It will be just like that when the Son of Man comes.  Then there will be two men in a field — one will be taken and the other left behind. There will be two women grinding flour at the mill — one will be taken and the other left behind.  So stay alert, because you don’t know on what day your Lord will come.  But you do know this: had the owner of the house known when the thief was coming, he would have stayed awake and not allowed his house to be broken into. Therefore you too must always be ready, for the Son of Man will come when you are not expecting him."
Matthew 25:36-50

So live each day as if it were your first and last in the fullness of the Shalom and love of Yeshua!

Blessings!