" For I know what plans I have in mind for you,’ says LORD,‘plans for well-being, not for bad things; so that you can have hope and a future. When you call to me and pray to me, I will listen to you. When you seek me, you will find me, provided you seek for me wholeheartedly."
Yeshua (Jesus) said, “I AM the Way - and the Truth and the Life; no one comes to the Father except through me."
So I was sitting here this morning talking with the Lord, when He asked me this question,
"Amy, do you really need someone else?"
So, just to fill you in a bit, so you have some context as to why the question was asked, I will share a bit more. You see I was pouring out my heart to the Lord about (what I believed was) my need for someone to come along side me in my (ministry) life before I could fully blossom and flourish in the call He had for my life. *(mind you this is not the first time I have had this conversation with the Lord -lol- none the less as always and ever so graciously with immense love, the Lord continued to converse with me as if it were the first time) When I was done (whining) pouring out my heart to the Lord, He asked me the question, "Amy, do you really need someone else?" My answer? 😊 "No. Lord you know I don't." 💕 "You have become to me, all that I need." 💗 Then the Lord reminded me of a dream I had years ago,
Where He spoke very clearly to me about my call. It wasn't the first time and it wasn't the last. However it was very powerful. After I was reminded of that dream Holy Spirit began to bring to mind a wealth of scripture that lifted me up as I lay on my altar.
This first scripture is one of my favorites. I speak this one daily. Galatians 2:20 "I have been crucified with Yeshua Messiah and I no longer live, but Messiah lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,who loved me and gave himself for me." Luke 9:23 "Then Yeshua was saying to everyone, “If anyone wants to follow Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross every day, and follow Me.For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it." John 12:24 "Amen, amen I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the earth and dies, it remains alone. But if it dies, it produces much fruit." John 3:30 "He must increase, while I must decrease.” You see, (being transparent here) I am on the downhill side of my natural life. I have lived through a great deal (of horrific traumas) here on earth. I only have the good Lord to credit for my life. 👣 He has been with me every step of the way! He has turned every tragedy into a victory! Psalm 34:19 So here I am still and I am continually learning how to live a life of rejoicing in the grave! Which is just another way of saying dying to ones self - in all things - every day - at all times - in every situation. - It's not always easy. Because, well, I am still in this natural body. That's when I so appreciate this beautiful scripture found in the Psalms 103:14 "For He knows our frame. He remembers that we are but dust."
I suppose it's quite apropos that King David was one who wrote this Psalm for us. A Psalm of the attributes of our loving Heavenly Father. Our Creator.
I don't suppose King David had too many friends after Jonathon. However, you sure can tell just how much David knew and loved His Lord by his writings. 💖 💔 💕 💗 Through it all. The brokenness. The sin. The heartache. The loneliness. The repentance. The passion. The obedience. He was surely a man after God's own heart. Oh dear Lord, help me too be all you have created me to be. To live a life worthy of the calling I have received in Yeshua Messiah. Through you Holy Spirit. For your Glory. Help me to rejoice daily in dying to myself as I live to serve others in your love...like you! Give Me a Heart Like Yours!
Silence captivates - in a loud unmanageable way Road blocks of words - deafening stillness lay Screaming whispers - of deepest despair Every turn - each breath - every stare Completely alone - in the midst of a crowd Every touch point - loneliness surrounds You over there - Me over here Alone are the lonely ones - in deepest despair
"Alone are the lonely ones in deepest despair."
Oh how I remember - I was once "the lonely one in deepest despair!"
No more! I once felt "Alone in the midst of a crowd."
No more! I once could not stay in a room without ambient noise of "some -kind" at all times because of the "screaming whispers" of my past! Afraid of the deafening silence!
No more! I have been set free!
Halleluiah! By the love of Adonai! I have come to receive and know the Amazing Grace of God and come to know Yeshua our Messiah! Through him I have been set free from all the above! I no longer have to be afraid of my own thoughts.
Yes - Sometimes I feel so helpless, because as much as I remember what it was like to live in darkness and despair, and I do remember, at the same time, much of the time I feel so helpless. I feel as though I am so ill equipped to be able to adequately share with everyone just how incredibly, wonderfully, awesome, loving, gracious and beautiful the Lord was, has been and is to me. To be able to adequately share how he lifted me up from death's door time and time again. How he put a new song in my heart!!!
Warm, soft, strong,
His arms hold me close. Tenderness, peace, love. He speaks with His eyes.
Together in silence. Face to face at last. Tears of joy shed together. No memory of my past.
A love to die for. A death to live for. The two become one.