Okay so one day you wake up and everything is just different.
"Different" than what it was yesterday....even different than what you thought it was going to be tomorrow....just so "different".
Why?
I don't think I like it. I mean I am all about change and all, just ask my Dad. He gave me the nick name Camile, short for Chameleon, because every time I would come for a visit he said I looked so different he didn't recognize me!
After all life is all about change anyway right? But it's the way it "sneaks up on you" that I don't care so much for. Who knows, maybe it's MY fault. It's quite possible I set myself up for the surprise to begin with and it really shouldn't be a surprise at all.
Ah heck! Surprise isn't really the an accurate word/adjective to describe what happens, how I feel about the whole situation. I think I am in denial here so I am going to get brave and admit the truth right now! The more appropriate word to describe how I am feeling is disappointed....suddenly disappointed. That being said I guess I have no choice but to take full responsibility for the way I am feeling at this point in my life. After all, disappointment only comes when one sets too high of expectations.
Hmmm. Of course now that I have said THAT I am thinking, re-thinking and wondering... is it really too much to expect that after you spend your entire life investing into someone, loving and praying for them they would at the least return your calls or e-mails every so often? (Flesh of your flesh and bone of your bone.)
I know, I know, there is so much more that goes into it...into relationships. I understand. Because of the Fathers love for me and Jesus love for me and Holy Spirit alive within me, thankfully I can love, continue to love unconditionally. :) Even when it hurts so much. Even when I don't understand. Even when I find myself feeling disappointed.
That is what is so beautiful about God's love....and the fact that it is greater and wider and fuller and because of it I am able to overcome my "feelings" ~ it enables me to love back those that otherwise in this world give me reason not to love them back.
I know I am rambling. Thanks for listening....lol....if you are.
You know life is hard and and full of opportunities for disappointments, I truly believe for just about everyone. There may be a few people out there that don't have many sorrows but most everyone has "something" that they have gone through or will go through.
The key is how will we handle these disappointments in life?
Will we choose to forgive when forgiveness is an issue?
Will we choose to love?
God's greatest gift was our free will.
What will you do with yours?
I am gonna choose to love.
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In a dream I think I am ~ Nothing is the same
My family is all gone ~ No one knows my name
The children are all grown up and moved away
No one seems to hear a single word I say
What has happened since yesterday?
Wake me up from this nightmare I pray
Why is everything so different today?
Why can’t things be like yesterday?
I lay me down to sleep dear Lord
With your heart I am in one accord
Although everything is different to me
I know in my heart you will help me see
All things will work for me
Because I love you, and you love me
No matter how different things may be
I choose to surrender in love everything
I give my life a fresh and a new
Knowing you will see me through
Because you love me and I love you
This alone will see me though
Knowing you love me and I love you
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