Seriously?

  Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

My heart this time is hurting in so many different places all at once.

I really didn't expect it...not this time.

Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

For some reason it's just not that easy this time around.

Can't seem to just turn the other cheek - not let it get me down.

Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

Believe me I try. I do. I really do.

This time it just hurt so much more.

I wonder why?

Because I am so much more tired than usual? Or because I have so much going on inside my heart? Or maybe because I was wasn't prepared for the invisible arrows that came flying through the air at lightning speed to pierce my unguarded heart. Normally I can sense them and ready my shield to guard me. Not so this time around. 

Am I asking so much....too much? If I were to answer that for someone else....what would my answer be. THAT is what I need to say to ME.

AHH! But it is soooo much easier to when it is someone else's life than mine.

So I will say it just one more time....Seriously?