No More!

Silence captivates - in a loud unmanageable way
Road blocks of words - deafening stillness lay
Screaming whispers - of deepest despair
Every turn - each breath - every stare

Completely alone - in the midst of a crowd
Every touch point - loneliness surrounds 
You over there - Me over here
Alone are the lonely ones - in deepest despair

"Alone are the lonely ones in deepest despair."

Oh how I remember - I was once "the lonely one in deepest despair!"

No more!

I once felt "Alone in the midst of a crowd."

No more!

I once could not stay in a room without ambient noise of "some -kind" at all times because of the "screaming whispers" of my past! Afraid of the deafening silence!

No more!

I have been set free!

Halleluiah! By the love of Adonai! I have come to receive and know the Amazing Grace of God and come to know Yeshua our Messiah! Through him I have been set free from all the above! I no longer have to be afraid of my own thoughts.

Yes - Sometimes I feel so helpless, because as much as I remember what it was like to live in darkness and despair, and I do remember, at the same time, much of the time I feel so helpless. I feel as though I am so ill equipped to be able to adequately share with everyone just how incredibly, wonderfully, awesome, loving, gracious and beautiful the Lord was, has been and is to me.
To be able to adequately share how he lifted me up from death's door time and time again. How he put a new song in my heart!!!

Heaven Awaits

Warm, soft, strong,

His arms hold me close.
Tenderness, peace, love.
He speaks with His eyes.

Together in silence.
Face to face at last.
Tears of joy shed together.
No memory of my past.

A love to die for.
A death to live for.
The two become one.

My Lord and me. 

  

Heaven awaits. 

       

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No One I Have Ever Known

There is no other love like Yours Lord.

It never waxes or wanes - forever consistently the same. 

(Yes I realize I doubled up there - the point)

You say what you mean. You mean what you say.

Your love is completely unconditional.

You knew who I was before I was who I am.

Still You never have left my side.

You watch over me every moment of each day. 

You watch over me all through the night.

Sing me sweet love songs while I sleep.

You're waiting for me with a smile when I awake.

You know every thought I think and every word I am about to speak, before they are even formed on my tongue.

Still You patiently sit and listen to me. I mean really listen to me, ramble on and on and on as if it were the first You had ever heard was on my heart.

You are like no one I have ever known.
Lord,You loved me so much that You wanted me to live forever with You.

That

You chose to take my place at the execution stake.

You stood in my place. Took my punishment.

So, I would not have to be punished.

So, I would not have to die.

You loved me so much.

So very much.

Lord, there is some much more.

But, basically this says it on a nutt shell.

There is no other love like Yours!

Today I Realized

God  heard everything I ever said to Him.

He heard every single word.
All the prayers I had ever prayed.

In fact, even those prayers that were no more than a groaning within my spirit born deep from my heart. 

HE heard them ALL.

Staring out my car window. Surrounded by a host of rush hour traveler's speeding past. Everyone in a hurry. Everyone going somewhere important to them - and today? Me, on my way to nowhere important really. It just HITS ME   *wham*    Like someone is playing a movie in my car and the screen is my windshield.

Strangest darn thing. 
I mean seriously - like yesterday in Target, only different. THIS time I start to see (remember) times and circumstances in my life that have been or are difficult or hurtful. 

THEN I SEE  (This is SOOOO cool) prayers I prayed! 

I  actually saw prayers that I had prayed, like written down.
The words flash across the screen (windshield).
I also saw (was reminded of) dreams the Lord had given me about such times - and - the VICTORIOUS outcome!

That's when I realized.

Everything I have been going through. 
Every trial - every hardship and tribulation, they were more than "just allowed" by God to build character - they were, ARE in fact, ANSWERS TO PRAYER - I was being given (strange as it was) a very unusual vision experience in my car - and  -because of it; 

TODAY I REALIZED - God hears my every prayer.

I will not pretend to understand how He works. 
I am just thankful He does and always amazed and so very humbled when He does.

I have prayed some pretty, well actually very serious prayers. 
God has taken them to heart. 
So I expect I will see some pretty serious trials and testings.

I suppose at this point I'm just glad I made it to where I was going without causing a major wreck on the interstate!

lol