When I read this blog post from 2009, I was reminded how the LORD has always prepared me for what ever life has thrown at me. I could never imagine I would have to endure the trial I was about to endure. Still, the LORD drew me away to prepare my heart.
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I never would have made it through what awaited me shortly after my time,
Alone with God.
I know that now.
God knew.
God always knows.
Thank you LORD
Alone with God
Alone with God
Quaking, shaking, crying
On my face
Holy, holy, holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Sudden hush of glory
Peace, quiet, stillness,
On my face
Holy, holy, holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Voice of God speaks
Small, quiet, mighty
Enters my soul
Heals, delivers, instructs
Heaven comes down
Humbled, thankful, jubilant
Angelic voices singing
Holy, holy, holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
I join in
On my face
Sing
Holy, holy, holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Nothing else
Only holy, only holy
Alone with God
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Five Days Alone with God
March, 19, 2009
So I am laying on my bed, it’s about 10 o’clock at night. I am staring at the ceiling and just thinking about all that has gone on these last few months. So much has gone on in my life. So much has changed. Tears begin to drop from my eyes and run down my cheeks and I whisper, “Oh Lord I love you. I miss you so much.”
Where has 2008 gone? I have just been so busy. My life once predicated first and foremost on my time with my beloved Lord, now so filled with hours of work and study; an emotional rollercoaster filled with relational issues. My whole life seemingly turned upside down in a matter of just 6 months. What happened?
My tears continued to fall down my cheeks and I drift off to sleep.
5:30 a.m. my alarm goes off...and I hear the voices of angels singing as I awaken into the day! They are singing a tune I wrote years ago. “Holy Holy Holy” I am so filled with peace. It is absolutely wonderful! I am instantly ushered into the holy presence of Adonai....During my morning prayer time, the Lord tells me He wants me to take some time to be alone with Him. An extended amount of time.
Later that day I began to search for places to take a spiritual retreat. I made some phone calls; nothing was working out. But I still had such a strong sense that this is what the Lord was wanting for me. So I put in for vacation time and trusted the Lord to bring in the funds to pay for the trip and most importantly, I prayed that the Lord would speak to Dan and confirm through him if I was to go away for an extended period of time.
Dan agreed that this was from the Lord and said yes. The funds miraculously became available. However, I didn't know until just days before I left for my trip WHERE I was actually going. I prayed and one morning I just heard the words “Moravian Falls”.
I had a limited familiarity of this place. Only that a friend lived there. So I broke open the computer and googled it. I found a small cabin and it was available to rent for the days I had taken off. So....It was off to Moravian Falls.
I stayed in a cozy little cottage/cabin a’top the Smoky mountains.
Although I was the only one around for miles
and the atmosphere was serene and peaceful
After two days of on my face before the MOST HOLY of HOLIES - That all changed
You could literally see the tangible glory of the LORD streaming from outside!
It was so amazing!
There was NO SUN light!
Yet it was so bright it was BLINDING!
I had thee most incredible five days alone with God.
No T.V. No Phone. No Work. No one else; just me and my Lord.; it was wonderful.
I loved on him….He loved on me…..I sang to Him…..He sang to me.
He made me laugh…..He made me cry……It was sheer heaven ….Just My Lord and I.
I didn’t go looking for heavenly hosts…..I met with my Abba, Yeshua and Ruach Hakodesh.
From sunrise to sunset….mid morning till afternoon…singing & dancing across the room.
Worship without end…blessings did HE send….peace from above…..my Father’s endless love.
Revelation’s from His Holy Word.
New Songs from HIS heart and from MINE
Hour after Hour….day and night after night.
In the stillness He is there…Not one thought or moment to a concern or thought to a care
For when I am with my God…all things are beautiful….all is at peace
I can sense nothing but His pure love and feel nothing but sweet release.
The Lord shared with me many things in those five days.
I hardly have the time to get them straight in mind…..much less to get them all down on paper.
The one stand out most is the one that seems to be furthest from the church today.
“Be still and know that I am God.”
I will share more as I have time on other things He shared with me later.
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Oh WHAT "Beauty" we are missing in the face of Our "Beloved LORD"....when we seek so diligently only after the bright and shinny gifts He holds!
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Here are just a couple of the highlights I took home with me :)
A poem, a Prose and (one of my favorite) A conversation I had with the Lord in an almost completely audible voice….while standing outside on the top of the mountain….
What You Want From Me
2009
Your heart Lord;
What you want of me, oh Lord.
To sit with you and listen to the desire of your heart;
To hear you tell me how you care, oh Lord.
To sit in silence, wonder and awe.
This is what little you want me to do.
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And still I say, “What can I do for you?”
Precious Lord, Holy Master.
Tell me, “What can I do for you?”
I want to please you.
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Still nothing has changed for you.
You want me to be with you.
Just be with you.
Come be with me ~ is all you say to me.
Come be with me.
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And still I say, “ What can I do for you?”
Precious Lord, Holy master.
Tell me, “WHAT can I do for you?”
I want to please you.
Still nothing has changed for you.
You want me to be with you.
Just be with you.
Come be with me ~ is all you say to me.
Come be with me.
Still nothing has changed for you.
You want me to be with you.
Just be with you.
Come be with me ~ is all you say to me.
Come be with me ~ is all you want from me.
Just be me be with me.
a song….
Captivated….
Taken hostage by your love
I’m captivated
Nothing can keep me from your love
Captivated
Dreams of mine, in you come true
You have captivated me
Now I am in love with you
Captivated
Taken hostage by your love
Yeshua….Yeshua
Nothing can keep me from your love
Captivated
By your love for me its true
Yeshua…..Yeshua
My desire is yours too
Captivated
You have captivated me
My heart will always be
Captivated by you…..
copyright ©2009 by Amy Colleen. All rights reserved.
A Conversation I had with the Lord on the top of the mountain….. about trees.
March 23, 2009
What kind of a tree are you?
While I was away with the Lord in the mountains the Lord spoke to me about consistency. It was just before Spring and the trees still had not budded and though I was high in the mountains it was not very green.
I was looking out over the great expanse of the mountain tops. It was chilly and misty. Most of the trees were leafless. At first glance it wasn’t the prettiest sight. However I found myself drawn to the beauty of the stillness. I could almost hear the silence.
My first gaze was at the far away mountain tops which had a brown cast to them; covered over with a mist of slowly moving fog. As I drew my attention closer in I noticed patches of green grass and an evergreen tree here and there scattered about. It actually brought a smile to my face. I chuckled aloud. That’s when I heard Him.
It wasn’t startling, as I know my Lord is always with me. Soft and strong, but very matter of factly He spoke and asked me,
“Amy Colleen aren’t they beautiful?”
I answered knowing exactly what He was referring to, the evergreens of course, for they had captivated me,
“Yes Lord…they really are quite beautiful. I had never noticed before.”
At least not like this.
I began to look around the hillside and I saw scattered about here and there in groups of two or three and sometimes by themselves evergreen trees; bright green evergreens trees. They “popped” out of the landscape as if someone had painted them into it to add color to a drab canvas.
It was like a light bulb had gone off inside of my head and then suddenly my focus had changed and I saw all of the other foliage, the drab leafless trees and bushes. There were so many of them, literally hundreds of them for every one of the evergreen trees.
At this point I heard the Lord say to me,
“My Amy you know what I love about the Evergreens?”
“What Lord?”
“They are so faithful. They are always there. You may not notice them in the middle of summer or especially during the brightness of autumn when they are surrounded by the glorious foliage of the Maple Trees. Still they are there growing and providing shade, moisture and seeds continually throughout the year for all those passers by.”
“Wow,” was really all I could think at that moment as my mind was being flooded with pictures of landscapes, small and large.
It was almost like a movie reel in my head. I was staring out over the mountains and I saw houses and yards; city halls, churches and then I saw Disney Land. I saw the Mickey Mouse and Goofy Evergreen bushes. That’s when I said,
“Oh! Lord…..what was THAT?”
The Lord answered me by reminding me that anything beautiful can be twisted and shaped into something artificial and used for something other than its originally intentioned purpose.
Thus making it still an evergreen but not living its divine order in life.
(Having seen the glorious evergreens on the mountain top just minutes before and then seeing the carved out Mickey and Goofy in my minds eye; there was no doubt in my heart that I would rather be the wild Evergreen if I was an evergreen tree at all)
This got me thinking….I began to think about how so many of us take such care to decorate our homes and yards with both Maple Trees and Evergreens.
They look so beautiful “together”. So I asked the Lord,
“Lord…..which is better…to be an Evergreen or a Maple Tree?”
“Neither,” was all He said.
I had a feeling He was going to say that.
So I got up the courage to ask Him , “Which one am I Lord?” even though I already had pretty much knew I was an Evergreen.
The Lord just chuckled…shook His head….and started to talk about the Maple tree.
“The colors are so vibrant and sometimes it seems as though they light up the sky around them; one of my favorite creations. A lot of energy is needed each season to allow for this transformation. Oh but how it’s worth it! Don’t you think my Amy?”
I just stood there amazed as I had my eyes fixed on the most beautiful Maple Tree I had ever seen in my life…..the colors were luminescent; it almost glowed. I have never seen anything like it on earth, never.
“Yes, Lord,” and I nodded my head.
The Lord continued,
“The beautiful Maple draws so much attention and is revered by so many. People will pay much to have them and travel far to see them in there full state of maturity. However they cannot maintain, nor were they ever expected to maintain, their glorious colors without a constant cycle of dormancy and renewal throughout their life cycle.”
At that…..the Maple disappeared.
I was standing alone on the mountain top in front of my cabin.
Realizing that the Lord had been talking to me about people, not really trees.
Visualizing my minds eye the breathtaking landscape in front of me full of Maples AND Evergreens.
Discovering that the innumerous Maples with their stunningly, glorious foliage really would totally cover up the much less in number Evergreen trees. I wasn’t feeling too terribly good about being an Evergreen at this point.
Then I started to think about how I have actually seen Evergreen trees growing on the SIDE of rocky mountains and all alone in the middle of a dried up creek bed.
I thought about how even just earlier that morning I had seen a family of squirrels using an Evergreen tree for a house in the middle of winter. How Owls and even EAGLES use them to nest in.
My thoughts continued into the city life and how people use Evergreens to protect their homes from the scorching heat in the summer and the high winds during the storm season. Evergreens may not be effervescent and may not be gloriously beautiful but they are faithfully hearty and full of life all year round.
If you were a tree which one would you be?
Do you know?
Neither is better than the other.....if you think about the most beautiful landscape, it will have both complimenting each other.
Shalom
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AmyColleen
