Circle of Life

The Long Road
October 29,2011 
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By: AmyColleenKlapp 

I am created
Warmth surrounds me - pounding heavy drum beats - comfort as each breath inhaled -  the life God chose to use as the cloth from which He knit my individual being - developed day by day

I am loved - I am perfect - completely unaware of what awaits me - created by God placed here by his choice

I am born
Cold chaos - surrounds - sudden brightness  - noise over powering - comforting heartbeats -  separation from the life God chose to use as the cloth from which He knit my individual being

Innocence lost
Trust encircles innocence -  deepening fear - hoovering round my ankles - demons dressed like adults - showering affection - secretly stealing life - nothing left that resembles the cloth from which God knit my individual being

I don’t feel loved- I don’t feel perfect - completely unaware of what awaits me - why did God created me?

Growing up
Alone - crying - lonely in the middle of a crowd - forgotten heart beats - pounding in my head - screaming in my pillow - nightmares in the daytime - wishing I were dead

Crossing over
Deafening sounds of piercing cries - pounding heavy drum beats - fear - each breath inhaled - draws closer death - to the life God knit - my individual being

I don’t want to die -  I hate my life - please if you are real hear my cry

New Life
AmyColleen - Beloved Hand Maiden
“I am here and I do love you”
Bright light - warm soft breeze - surrounding me - drops of rain filling my soul - I am His I know I am clean I am  loved


When I was 16 I gave my life to the Lord Jesus. After a rough time of it, even for back in those days. I had been through a lot for a 16 year old. I ask the Lord Jesus to come into my heart and forgive me of MY sin and I forgave those that had sinned against me. I also asked Him to baptize me in His Holy Spirit. I have NOT be the SAME since! Yes life is hard. The Word of God promises us that! The Lord causes it to rain on the just and unjust alike. The Word says that  A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;” Psalm 34:19
I am 60 now. I have grown kids of my own. Life is surely not what I expected. Praise the Lord!
For the first time since I knew (when I was a small child) I felt good about myself.

I am loved - I am not perfect - completely unaware of what awaits me - created by God for His glory and His purpose

Married Life
Fantasy revealed - dreams - reality births passions of siblings love and hate - trust and loyalty never had a shot the cloth from which God knit my individual being

I don’t feel loved - I am not perfect - completely unaware of what awaits me - created by God for His glory and His purpose - God please help me

Motherhood
Overwhelming joy and love - warmth surrounds me - again I hear the drum beats this time it’s much faster - comfort with each breath I inhale - the life God chose to use as the cloth from which He knits my babies individual being - developed day by day.
I stand cradling my tummy ….and remember....as if I could almost ….remember...being where you are.
The moment I saw you - eyes full of tears - heart full of love - I drew you close to my breast - Held you tight through the night.- Told you everything would be alright - You were the joy in my day - The smile on my face - You still are.

Adulthood

Warmth surrounds me - sounds of heavens angels singing - comfort as each breath I breathe I know -  the life God chose to use as the cloth from which He knit my individual being - I will once again soon see - life's full circle continuing day by day

In HIS eyes - I am loved - I am perfect - completely unaware of what awaits me - created by God placed here by his choice

Grandparent-hood
Overwhelming joy and love - I have been here before - not like this - so much love - so much joy - again I hear the drum beats - pounding heavy drum beats - comfort as each breath inhaled -  the life God chose to use as the cloth from which He knit my individual being - complete - so complete - as these tiny little swaddles lays against my chest - so loved - so perfect - completely unaware of what awaits them - created by God - placed here by his choice.

The circle of life.

We Are Who We Are

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We are who we are.

Which basically consists of who we were.

Who we make ourselves out to be and who we ultimately allow ourselves to become.

All from what life serves us up and of course lets not forget what we ourselves bring upon our own selves; what we are responsible for...i.e.the trouble we get ourselves into and bring upon ourselves.


Like my good old pops says all the time, "Amy when you get right down to it people cause 95% of their own problems themselves."

I happen to agree with my pops....Truth of the matter is, if we as human nature 'd creatures weren't so proud we would probably all admit what my pops said was true....or IS true!

Well getting along with my story here... I just turned 48 years old last week and I feel like it. haha. Three years ago I felt a world a different; like I wasn't sure whether I was coming or going - cathin' or pithin'.

WOW - things have changed in three years! I feel like I have aged so much. While at the same time, I feel so much younger. I can't explain it really. Although I do understand some of what is going on. I believe it has something to do with simply growing up. Coming to grips with reality. Taking responsibility for my life. Maturing. Getting to really know my creator....intimately.

One thing for sure....One thing that stands out the most....I have peace.

Don't get me wrong here....I have had peace before. Always had the peace of God in my life when I needed it. Not like this though.
This is a new thing for me to experience. This peace is different. I have never experienced anything like it before.
This peace is unrelenting, unwavering, unmoving and has absolutely nothing to do with me or my actions. I don't have to ask for it, believe for it, desire it, nothing.

I believe that I am truly experiencing God's peace in my life in a whole new level, like I have never before and it is refreshing and liberating.

Why?

Well I'd be lying if I said I didn't ask that question . But it really doesn't matter as to why.

I don't know exactly "why". I do know that I have come to a new place in my life, in my relationship with my creator; God Almighty. I have by faith, given everything; all my hope and dreams; all fears and disappointments all my desires and joys all my talents and goals in life. I have given every beat of my heart, every breath I take; dedicated every move I make and step I take; very thought and intention of my heart to HIM...even my free will...to the Glory of God the Father in Heaven and Jesus His Son.

I have done so with new vitality so That I can some how truly become a living sacrifice that is honorable and pleasing in the sight of God the Father in Heaven.....made in the likeness and image of His Son.

I do truly believe that my, (what some have called my obsession) new found "way" of living is truly, if not thee reason for this new found peace at the very least one of the major reasons for it.

In my quest to die to self and live wholly devoted to Yeshua HaMashiach (Jesus Our Messiah) I am learning to not hide but live as "who" I am in "whole" not in part.

I urge all of you...(the few that will come upon this and read it) :) to do the same.

Live your Life as a whole person.

Wholly pleasing to God.

Clean before HIM.
Knowing that HE created YOU in HIS image and that HE loves YOU sooooo much that while YOU were yet a sinner HE sent HIS ONLY begotten Son to come and die upon a cross to be living sacrifice so that YOU would not have to die!!!

Be Made WHOLE IN JESUS!! Come be re united to your heavenly Father...He loves you! ALL of you!


AmyColleenDriscollTaylorKlapp


If you do not already know God....or Jesus as personally. Which you can by the way. I would be very happy to introduce you! Please feel free to e-mail me @ AmyColleen@gmail.com or send me a message here.....or simply ask the Lord Himself to introduce Himself to you. He will. It's not complicated....just a simple prayer prayed in faith is all that is necessary.
Something along the lines of ..."Heavenly Father, I know that I have broken your laws and my sins have separated me from you. I am truly sorry, and now I want to turn away from my past sinful life toward you. Please forgive me, and help me avoid sinning again. I believe that your son, Jesus Christ died for my sins, was resurrected from the dead, is alive, and hears my prayer. I invite Jesus to become the Lord of my life, to rule and reign in my heart from this day forward. Please send your Holy Spirit to help me obey You, and to do Your will for the rest of my life. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen."

If you do ...please let me know! :)
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