Mini Me

September 12, 2009

So when you are a wee small child all you want to do is grow up and be like your mom or dad, right?

Then some where along the way as you grow older things begin to change and you realize maybe “not so much”….perhaps they really haven’t done the best job of raising you, being married to each other, or what ever the case may be.


Then once again as time carries on and you get even older you get married, have your own family you realize perhaps you may have been a tad bit harsh on ol’ mom and dad and begin looking up to them once again. If you are blessed enough to have them around while you are married and have children you begin to reminisce about the olden days with them in front of your kids; making light of what used to really bother you as a child. All the while carrying through with the same relational interactions your parents had with you, with your children.

Again, as time passes and you grow older and relationships age as well, you realize you are becoming more and more like your parents than you ever imagined was possible.

Why?

How?

Is this a natural course of events?

Surely…you did not desire this…plan this…in any way facilitate this.

If anything you tried over the years to keep this from happening. There were times you saw signs of parental similarities. Immediately you tried to snuff them out! (Apparently to no avail.)

It’s not just the physical similarities it’s the mannerisms and the driving forces and personality traits that are becoming more and more pronounced as time goes on.

What’s more…..your spouse - they too are becoming like your parents spouse!

Is this really happening? Is this for real? Can this be stopped in motion? Turned around?
Are you really your mother’s …your father’s mini me?


I don’t know.

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All I Ever Wanted

All I ever wanted was a big family when I grew up.

Lots of kids …lots noise….lots of fun and lots of laughter.

I remember what it was like growing up in all of that.

“Craziness”….simply put – CrAzY…..but I wouldn’t have had it any other way!


I miss those times….I miss my Mom and I miss my Dad and I miss all my brothers and sisters. I miss the crazy holiday gatherings; Dad on the piano, Mom in the kitchen and a house FULL of the rest of us and our cousins and friends and neighbors. Lots of food and fun!

I could reminisce about individual times (I remember them like vivid movies in my head!) but there are soooo many; and they are all hilarious and fun and full of love each one!

Mostly I just miss my family.

Funny…..all I ever wanted when I was young was to be a mom and to have a big family.

Here I am a mom, with five kids. But no big time family gatherings filled with music and fun, food and frolic.

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How ironic is that?


*sigh*

Why do we Need to Love?

I heard some ask the question,

"Why Do We Love, Love... even when love seems to hate us?"

I thought about it for a moment and then it came to me ~

Because we don't really understand what love is. If we did then we would realize that love does in fact love us all equally and that we can't live without love. That is why we love love.

Also, it is not love that hates, but rather it is our own selfish nature that is guilty of hating. Harsh as that sounds.

If we take a moment to really look and meditate on what true love is ( a perfect definition is found in the word of God 1 Cor ch 13 below ) ...when the epiphany *hits* us...it will rock our world.

Definition of Love

"Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily.

It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly.

Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong].

It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail.

Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening].

Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end]."

(taken from the Amplified Version of the Holy Bible)

You can RUN but you CAN'T HIDE.....

Psalm 139

¹ O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

² You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

³ You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

⁴ Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

⁵ You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

⁶ Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

⁷ Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

⁸ If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

⁹ If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

¹⁰ even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

¹¹ If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

¹² even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

¹³ For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

¹⁴ I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

¹⁵ My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

¹⁶ your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

¹⁷ How precious to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

¹⁸ Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

¹⁹ If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

²⁰ They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

²¹ Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

²² I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

²³ Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

²⁴ See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.