Seriously?

  Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

My heart this time is hurting in so many different places all at once.

I really didn't expect it...not this time.

Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

For some reason it's just not that easy this time around.

Can't seem to just turn the other cheek - not let it get me down.

Honestly - I know  I shouldn't let it get to me.

I do.

Honestly - I know I should just let it go.

I do.

Believe me I try. I do. I really do.

This time it just hurt so much more.

I wonder why?

Because I am so much more tired than usual? Or because I have so much going on inside my heart? Or maybe because I was wasn't prepared for the invisible arrows that came flying through the air at lightning speed to pierce my unguarded heart. Normally I can sense them and ready my shield to guard me. Not so this time around. 

Am I asking so much....too much? If I were to answer that for someone else....what would my answer be. THAT is what I need to say to ME.

AHH! But it is soooo much easier to when it is someone else's life than mine.

So I will say it just one more time....Seriously?

Free

SET ME FREE

Set me Free
Let me see...what you see......how you see

Set me Free
Come to me...take from me...all impurity
Set me free
Let me see....what you see.....how you see
Come to me, Lord....take from me, all impurity...Lord
and
SET me Free....LORD.... come and set me free....

I have to have you.
I need to know you.
Come and set me free

I have to have you
I need to know you
More and more Lord.....Come and set me free....Set me free
I have to have you.....I have to have you
I need to know you.....I need to know you
More and more........Lord Come and set me free.

You make me who I am

You make me what I need to be

You Lord are all I need.......everything Lord.....everything and more.

You  Lord are all I long for ....everything and more ...everything and more.

Set me Free
Let me see...what you see......how you see

Lord

Set me Free
Come to me...take from me...all impurity

Lord Yeshua

and 

Let me see....what you see.....how you see
Come to me, Lord Yeshua... and Set ME FREE!!!

 Set Me Free!

LORD.....Set Me Freeeeee!

I have to have you.
I need to know you.
Come and set me free

©2008 AmyColleen words and music

M&M's the Real thing and I'm not Sensoring

Okay....Hello.

This is it. The real deal. The real thing.  No sugar coating. No chocolate covered candy that melts in your mouth....with a secret rotten peanut inside!. Just saying it like it is!

THOSE OF YOU THAT KNOW ME....Know I usually do....(say it like I see it)...Over the years I have toned done a "wee" bit...but I am feeling  a rising in my "toning" if you will....I just can't take it any more! Too much pain and grief every where I turn these days!


 Just take a look yourself!  GO AHEAD!  Yes...I mean RIGHT NOW...Well No, you can't literally look everywhere, but just take a moment ...stop what you're doing and .think about it....think about YOUR life...think about people in your family....think about people at work; think about your neighbors or even just the people  you pass every day on your way to work. All the grief or pain and anger you hear or maybe close out...every day. Why JUST today alone, at work, I was approached and asked by two co-workers for prayer. One of which was not even aware of my spiritual relationship with Yeshua. They were both in desperate need. There were others that I could see around me at work, clearly going through very difficult situations, very hard times.





It seems to me, so much of the time....so many honestly don'y care.
I know that may sound harsh....honestly though....that is how I feel and I believe that is how many others feel as well.

SO - what are WE all doing about it? Anything?

Ever hear the phrase -


"Need a friend....BE a friend."...?

I really love that phrase!.....I have to admit I have fallen short allot myself in this area. Being so busy with work and the girls....And, well, friendship takes work, commitment.
I personally have learned to adapt without a close friend...in the flesh anyway.

But lately, seeing so many broken hearts every where I go...has stirred my righteous indignation up a bit.


It's a gift I guess...always being so sensitive, .being able to see - sense and discern peoples hearts so acutely....OR... sometimes it seems a curse....Seeing, what seems to me, to be such an insurmountable need and only being one person and not being able to meet everyone's needs. 


Either way.....it's who I am ....who God made me. ...and though it has taken me many, many, many.... long years and broken hearts and victories won...I have learned to embrace who and what I am! And ALL for the Glory of God my creator and HIS world and most beautiful of Creations ....YOU!


I have to admit though, I have not yet made it to the finish line. Not yet attained that "perfect" finish on this lovely vessel the Master Potter has created. I am still in the polishing stage. There are many reasons I know this to be true. lol However....at this time the ONE THING THAT IS MAKING ME REALIZE I NEED ALLOT MORE WORK TO BE WHERE I NEED TO BE is the fact that I am having SUCH A HARD TIME  RIGHT NOW WITH THE VERY PEOPLE I SHOULD BE SHOWERING EXTRA LOVE ON.


You see, I KNOW BETTER, than to hold a grudge....judge someone who doesn't think like me, believe like me, live like me....etc...etc. Honestly, I have learned to love pretty much everyone; or actually, more accurately ...I have learned to let the love of God live through me.


It's just here recently, with this "heightened" discernment and sensitivity I have been feeling....for people. My heart breaking so much....FOR EVERYONE...I am finding myself a bit PUT OUT with those WHO PRIDE THEMSELVES ON THEIR DIVERSITY AND YET WHEN THEY FIND SOMEONE DOES NOT LIVE, BELIEVE,THINK AS THEY DO,  they shun them. 
I am having a hard time with this.


Especially....because they are quite quick to call the kettle black.


The kettle being me...and not even to my face.


Come on....if YOU are gonna talk about me....DO IT TO MY FACE.


Thank you. That is all.


Oh, except this....I do in fact love each and everyone I know. Each of you! 
I think you are awesome!
Message me and I will tell you why!

Shalom out!

Bring Us Back Oh God

Have Mercy On Us and Bring Us Back Oh God!

   

I miss the company of those whose sole purpose in life is to see the touch of the Master’s hand on the poor and weary wanderer. 

I miss the day, when every day was a day of sole dependence on God for our every morsel of daily bread for which to feed the flock. 

I miss the day when worship rained down from Heaven like crystal drops of water and refreshed our souls with the scent of lilies and rose hips.
  

I miss the day when a garage was truly a garage and simply a place for the believer to gather to be refreshed and strengthen for our next purpose in life - encountering God’s lost ones outside the garage and sharing His love with them where they were.

Why? Why? Why?

Why, oh Lord does everything that man puts his hand to need to grow so big and so far away from his first love?

Why? Why? Why?

Why, Oh Lord do we need to feel so important and defend our own cause; justifying our moves with your name and rank?

Why? Why? Why?

Do we really think that if you do not approve you will swoop down from Heaven and simply stop us? Are we really so vain?

 Do we not know from your Word that you will allow us to continue and build our empires/ministries, and when the trumpet blows, we will all stand before and give account to you, for everything you placed in our life? 

What we did with them? Where we placed them on our scale of importance?

Oh Lord, God…have mercy on me….have mercy on us!!!! For our selfishness!!!! For forgetting about YOUR HEART….Forgetting about YOUR LOVE!!!
 

Forgetting about ALL THE LITTLE CHILDREN in the WORLD who go with out….ALL the MISSIONARIES,your children, our brothers and sister in you whom we so proudly boast that we support, and give so very, very little to and all the while we are living the high life!!!  [Big houses, 3 meals a day, meals out, movies, vacations, etc. you name it!] 

 Forgive me Lord….forgive us LORD!!!! 

Have MERCY - OH God!!!!!
Holy Father….cleanse us with the Blood of your Son Yeshua…..wash us clean and give us your Heart I pray……remove from us our heart of stone and give us a heart of flesh. 

Give us a giving heart; a heart that gives beyond our means or desires for ourself...that gives to poor and needy, trully to the poor and needy and not to ourselves first and  our own causes, first. 

Lord give us the desire ourselves to go!  

To GO! and feed the poor; to clothe the poor; to reach the needy and lost.

To be your hands and feet, Lord.
Give us eyes to see the world as you see the world, through Yeshua…..Give us your love, break our hearts, break my heart. Break our hearts like they have never been broken before.
Let us weep for those who are lost like we have  never wept before; so we will be uncomfortable. 

Make us uncomfortable LORD!!!!! Uncomfortable Lord!!!!!!
 

In the Mighty, ever loving, forgiving, passionate and just name of,
Yeshua HaMashiach   [Jesus the Anointed One]