I am my Beloveds and He is Mine

Faith

Is like the wind which blows where it wishes. We hear the sound of it, but do not know where it comes from nor where it is going. Yet it stirs everything in its path.

Oh that I may have such a faith!

Have you ever just stopped?

Just stopped and thought about such things?

I have. 

Especially just recently.

Faith, to me,  has always seemed to be an act of will, only.

I have never thought of faith as something that just happens, as I suggested in my first sentence in this blog post. But I believe it can actually be that way.  For me, now, it is very much so, becoming just that.

Not just believing God can But believing God will

In the midst of our need comes the wind of Heaven

Touching our soul like glorious leaven

Holy Spirit knowing just what we need

Touching and meeting every single need.

In the midst of chaos all around. Being able to rest.

During stress unconscionable. Joy wins this test.

Should despair creep into our heart. Gust of hope make it depart.

 In deluge of attack on our mind.

Faith rise up - like no other kind!

Out of nowhere peace, like a river floods our soul.

Joy bubbles up, within us, and no-one  knows.

There is pain, yes. There is betrayal, yes.

Oh but there is the faith that blows in on it's own.

Like the wind from the North - when sorrow is home.

It comes and it blows and it fills your soul.

With beauty for ashes and faith for fear.

Once again I am jubilant and my mind is clear! 

Faith has brought me - to this place.

I stand in His presence. Gaze upon His face.

I am my beloveds and He is mine.

It has been this way all the time.

Faith

Thoughts at Midnight

Sometimes it just hits me. Out of nowhere. I will be sitting reading. Or I could be driving to the store, on the phone at work, or actively engaged in a conversation that has absolutely nothing at all to do with my children or grand children. That's when it happens. I see their face, in my minds eye or I hear their voice or laugh. My heart is instantly stirred. When it is my daughters I think about I always have an instant smile that appears. When my thoughts are drawn to my sons and their families, a plethora of emotions begin to flood my heart and mind. Starting of course with sadness. They are so far away both In distance and also I have not heard from them for so very long.  I miss them so much I can't begin to describe how I feel. 

I haven 't written about it lately. I dunno know why, exactly. 

I have NEVER been good about writing when I am sad - -or - expressing sad emotions in pen and paper.

I am sure there are plenty Dr Freud's out there who are just waiting to read blog post's written in the thick of sadness so they can give their expertise counsel.

haha - well I am not the perfect subject for them that is for sure!

Perhaps that is one of the main reasons I have not been as transparent as I could be on this subject matter.

I know that all is well - with my soul. It most truly is. I, like King David in the book of Psalms in the Bible, take solace in vocalizing to God my hardships and at the same time recognize my humanness and the fact that He, God, is my help - my -provider - my shield - my portion. That in the end I am not only okay, but absolutely taken care of and perfectly at peace in the hand of my Heavenly Father.

I am simply God's own Amy Colleen.
A lover of God. A lover of people.
A wife, a mother and a grammy.
That pretty much sums it up.

Life is kinda hard. Well actually it's more than kinda hard. It can be down right horrible at times! I know for me, there are a great many times I know that if it hadn't been for the relationship I had with Yeshua - I would not have been able to carry on.  I would not have been able to take  my next breath. Have any hope at all -.because of how hard life's circumstances have been at times. Plain and simple.
Even now,  though I may not be "desperate" because of the circumstances that surround me in my life I have to say it  is because of my relationship with my God. My life's circumstances are quite difficult, and could, if I didn't have my anchor Yeshua,  most likely would, take me down - make me desperate. Though not - because I DO HAVE HIM.

Instead I find strength. Instead I find love.
 Instead I find peace.
Instead I find faith.
 Instead I find hope.

So

I am still. I know you are God.

I am still. I wait.

I am still. You are Holy.

I am still. I wait for You.

I am still. I know you are God.
You are Holy.

You are faithful.
You are true.
You keep your word.  I will follow You.

Plain and simple.
And You oh Lord?

For me You say,

"Love for You is all I have

Not one but each I choose

I wish to shower blessing

Desire streams from me to you

I love you all each the same

My desire never shall be undone

Some come and some stay away

Free will is my gift of love

My choice my life eternal

Turn to me and live

I love you with my life."

Misty is singing my heart through her worship song  below!