I Choose Love

I Choose Love

Pity ~ Anger ~ Love

Love ~ Anger ~ Pity

Total Confusion

As hard I try and look deeply into the one I am now a part of,

I cannot, I simply cannot see what moves him.

I see a man so strong at first glance,

I see a man hiding his true strength, behind an iron wall around his heart.

I see a man so proud he does not give into mindless emotions,

I see a man whose word only holds true when his feelings support his mood.

“I am here ~ I am not ~ I want you ~ I don’t need you”

Pity ~ Anger ~ Love

Love ~ Pity ~ Anger

Total confusion

I love him still, the one I am now a part of.

I keep looking, deep inside to try and find what moves him.

I see pain and sorrow.

I see tears that fill the shadows of his heart, still left to fall.

I see fear not surrendered.

I see pride before a fall.

“Go away; leave me alone ~ I will never let you go”

Pity ~ Anger ~ Love

Love ~ Anger ~ Pity

Total confusion

Where does he stand in all this?

I try and try and try to find hope and still I see none.

I see hurt, lots of it.

I see anger, lots of it.

I see disappointment and a need to be loved.

I see something in him no one else does.

“You are so wonderful ~ you bring me down.”

Pity ~ Anger ~ Love

Love ~ Anger ~ Pity

Total confusion

I don’t know from one day to the next if he will stay or go.

As hard I as I try I just can’t see what moves him.

I still love him, the one I am now a part of.

The more I try to find what moves him,

The more confused I get.

Why won’t he help me? Why won’t he help himself?

Why won’t he let me into his heart?

Why won’t he let me love him?

Pity ~ Anger ~Love

Love ~ Pity ~ Anger

I choose love.

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