Well, it has been an interesting few days...weeks...WHO am I trying to kid here? It's more like months....YEPPERS, I have been on an emotional "roller" coaster. Honesty, I have been doing really good about hiding it. Holding it all in. Until.....TODAY....Yep.....Today I cried.
It was the strangest thing. I don't know if it was hormones or left over anesthesia from my procedure yestetday. Both maybe? But the strangest thing happened today at Target. As I walked past the baby girls clothes I just got so excited inside as I saw all the precious little outfits. Then I rounded the corner and saw the baby boys section. Again, my heart just leaped! I thought to myself, "Oh if I only had grand babies to spoil!"
Then suddenly I remembered I did, but I didn't. My heart sunk....and I cried. Right there in public. Tears literally flowed...streamed....down my cheeks. I completely forgot why I came to Target...and left as quickly as I could. Trying not to be seen.
I have been so strong. All this time.
So I thought.
Then I went to Target and I cried.
Go figure.
Prophetic Soaking Music
11/28/12
11/11/12
Never have I ever ......
2- Never have I ever - Eaten cows tongue. That is just *ewe*.
3- Never have I ever - Believed for one second that fruit belongs MIXED IN yogurt. Another Ewe. I have a texture thing. I love yogurt, lemon, orange and lime only.
4- Never have I ever - Jumped out of an airplane. Flown in lots of them. All different sizes. Just never jumped out of one and have no desire to either.
5- Never have I ever -Told someone I loved them, when I didn't.
6- Never have I ever - Missed anyone more than I miss my three sons. Yeah. Never. Ever.
7- Never have I ever - Been to Ireland. Some place I so want to go.
8- Never have I ever - Seen my grand children Benjamin, Hannah, or Rachel. (not yet anyway. I am hoping, praying an believing that one day I will)
9- Never have I ever - Gone on a cruise. I have a "boat" thing. Boats don't like me From 14 ft to 32 ft sail boats...I seem to find my way into the water involuntarily! So, yeah, now I just "voluntarily" steer clear of them all together.
10- Never have I ever -Turned away a single sunflower, no not ever! I LOVE sunflowers they are my all time favorite flowers!!
11/6/12
From Me to You
Just wanted to say,
"I love you!'
To my kids. My wonderful children. All five.
That's it.
Mum
11/2/12
Ramblings at 4 am - Peace
So its really early in the morning. Well for me anyway. I have been up since 4 am.
So much running through my head....my heart.
This has been a crazy 5 years.
Awe! Who am I kidding?
It has been a crazy life!
One of which I would not have been able to survive thus far without having my Lord by my side! *and I am not exaggerating either!
I honestly do not know how anyone can live without knowing the Lord. (Personally)
Especially during these perilous times where hope seems harder and harder to come by. Families being driven apart at an unprecedented rate. True friendship nearly impossible to come by. Economies world wide collapsing. It is no wonder the suicide rate is so high and not only among adults but sadly, the highest it has ever been, among teenagers and even children!
The Lord tells us that men's hearts will fail them for fear of what is to come in these days....and in the NIV version in the Gospel of Luke 21 it puts it this way...." People will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world...."
And here I sit. In perfect peace.
I have lived a long 51 years. My life has by no means been anyone's desired dream life. Not even mine. However, as each day passes - as I grow closer and closer to the Lord - I become more and more thankful for every day I have lived. I become more thankful for every event that has ever occurred in my life. Good and not so good and even the bad. Sounds crazy, huh? You may ask why....Well, because each and every day of my life - each and every event in my life - is a part of who I have become.
Romans 8:28 tells us -that
"....we know that God works all things for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Also in Ecclesiastes 3:11 - we are reminded that ...."GOD has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
I truly believe that we, God's creation, have lost sight of our total purpose of being created.
"To have relationship with God"
Since sin came into the world, and atonement needed to be made to bridge the gap created by our sin, it is reasonable that distraction is rampant.
So much running through my head....my heart.
This has been a crazy 5 years.
It has been a crazy life!
One of which I would not have been able to survive thus far without having my Lord by my side! *and I am not exaggerating either!
I honestly do not know how anyone can live without knowing the Lord. (Personally)
Especially during these perilous times where hope seems harder and harder to come by. Families being driven apart at an unprecedented rate. True friendship nearly impossible to come by. Economies world wide collapsing. It is no wonder the suicide rate is so high and not only among adults but sadly, the highest it has ever been, among teenagers and even children!
The Lord tells us that men's hearts will fail them for fear of what is to come in these days....and in the NIV version in the Gospel of Luke 21 it puts it this way...." People will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world...."
And here I sit. In perfect peace.
I have lived a long 51 years. My life has by no means been anyone's desired dream life. Not even mine. However, as each day passes - as I grow closer and closer to the Lord - I become more and more thankful for every day I have lived. I become more thankful for every event that has ever occurred in my life. Good and not so good and even the bad. Sounds crazy, huh? You may ask why....Well, because each and every day of my life - each and every event in my life - is a part of who I have become.
Romans 8:28 tells us -that
"....we know that God works all things for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."
Also in Ecclesiastes 3:11 - we are reminded that ...."GOD has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
I truly believe that we, God's creation, have lost sight of our total purpose of being created.
"To have relationship with God"
Since sin came into the world, and atonement needed to be made to bridge the gap created by our sin, it is reasonable that distraction is rampant.
The sad part is that those of us who have the knowledge of this and who should be in relationship with God's son Jesus/Yeshua and should be following His directive (otherwise known as the great commission. Matthew 28:16-20) ....well...., we are not. At least not to the degree that we should be.
I mean, come on now, just take a moment and *think* about it.
God created us to have a relationship with Him.
We messed up - and - because we messed up we could no longer hang out with God
- so -
God made a way and fixed that, through His Son Jesus/Yeshua.
Soooo, those of us that have received that *awesome* revelation (Jesus)
are expected to share that *awesome* revelation (Jesus)
(the Great commission *below)
with those that do not have it (the revelation/knowledge of Jesus/Yeshua)
so that they may also have relationship with God their creator
who loves them - with His whole heart and life
which was the plan all along since the beginning of time!
Oh glory!
So let us go ye therefore into our lil neck of the woods - postal code or whatever and spread some God love!
The Great Commission
Matthew 28
16 Then the eleven disciples went to Galilee, to the mountain where Jesus had told them to go.17 When they saw him, they worshiped him; but some doubted. 18 Then Jesus came to them and said, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19 Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age.”
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