The Fire Within

12/1/12

I will

You’re All There Is For Me

Foxes have their holes Lord. Birds they have their nest.

But you say you have no place to rest.

Still I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.

For my Lord you’re all there is for me.

Still there are times I wonder. Can I keep pressing on?

The river’s flood keeps rising;

The fire’s burning strong;

Lord how long?

“Fear not I have redeemed you.

I have called you by name.

My child, whom I have chosen,

Whom I formed and whom I’ve made.

Do not fear for I am with you.

I am the Lord Almighty God.

Because you’re mine and I love you;

You will survive against all odds;

For, I am God.”

I may not understand Lord; All you have for me.

But you say don’t worry just believe.

So I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.

For my Lord you’re all there is for me.

So let the river flow Lord. Let the fire burn.

You are God Almighty.

And I have your word.

You are with me.

11/28/12

Well, it has been an interesting few days...weeks...WHO am I trying to kid here? It's more like months....YEPPERS, I have been on an emotional "roller" coaster. Honesty, I have been doing really good about hiding it. Holding it all in. Until.....TODAY....Yep.....Today I cried.
It was the strangest thing. I don't know if it was hormones or left over anesthesia from my procedure yestetday. Both maybe? But the strangest thing happened today at Target. As I walked past the baby girls clothes I just got so excited inside as I saw all the precious little outfits. Then I rounded the corner and saw the baby boys section. Again, my heart just leaped! I thought to myself, "Oh if I only had grand babies to spoil!"
Then suddenly I remembered I did, but I didn't. My heart sunk....and I cried. Right there in public. Tears literally flowed...streamed....down my cheeks. I completely forgot why I came to Target...and left as quickly as I could. Trying not to be seen.
I have been so strong. All this time.
So I thought.
Then I went to Target and I cried.
Go figure.

11/11/12

Never have I ever ......

1- Never have I ever - Gone a one single day without praying fervently at least three times a day for each one of my (beautiful-God given) children. My life *joys*!

2- Never have I ever - Eaten cows tongue. That is just *ewe*.

3- Never have I ever - Believed for one second that fruit belongs MIXED IN yogurt. Another Ewe. I have a texture thing. I love yogurt, lemon, orange and lime only.

4- Never have I ever - Jumped out of an airplane. Flown in lots of them. All different sizes. Just never jumped out of one and have no desire to either.

5- Never have I ever -Told someone I loved them, when I didn't.

6- Never have I ever - Missed anyone more than I miss my three sons. Yeah. Never. Ever.

7- Never have I ever - Been to Ireland. Some place I so want to go.

8- Never have I ever - Seen my grand children Benjamin, Hannah, or Rachel. (not yet anyway. I am hoping, praying an believing that one day I will)

9- Never have I ever - Gone on a cruise. I have a "boat" thing. Boats don't like me From 14 ft to 32 ft sail boats...I seem to find my way into the water involuntarily! So, yeah, now I just "voluntarily" steer clear of them all together.

10- Never have I ever -Turned away a single sunflower, no not ever! I LOVE sunflowers they are my all time favorite flowers!!

11/6/12

From Me to You

Just wanted to say,
"I love you!'
To my kids. My wonderful children. All five.
That's it.
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