The Fire Within: December 2012

12/25/12

A look through 2012

A year full of being emptied.

Gaining from loosing.

Seeking and finding.

Not understanding.

Going deeper & higher.

Realizing I am completely lost and finding myself in Him - again.

Meeting strangers in those I know as family.

and

Finding family instrangers along the way.

Discovering

I have no tears left to cry.

After countless nights

crying to sleep in Papa God's lap wondering, "Why?"

Thankfully

2012 is now coming to a close.

I am fairly glad.

I know that all things will work out for my good.

But the majority of this last year has been far too heart wrenching and sad.

So I welcome this new year!

I am thankful for all the awesome - wonderful people God has placed around me and in my life this last year!

I leave you

With these tid bits oflearning from 2012!

Believing

Is a life long lesson of faith tested and tried.

Knowing

Is a daily confidence that comes from learning how to abide.

Peace

Is the fruit of righteousness - Yeshua Savior - Messiah - King.

Truth

Is freedom when found - free for all when sought above all else.

Forgiveness

Is needed by all - received by many - yet extended by far too few.

Love

Is the greatest - most wonderful gift of all - and can only be received when given away.

Most of All

Remember - things could always be worse.

So make time to be

click here to see 2012 in pictures

Shalom - I love you!

12/19/12

There is nothing I love more. NOTHING.

Than the Word of God.

I love God's Word - you know?

No matter what is going on around me - no matter what I am going through.

No matter how dark the hour may seem.
The Word of the Lord ALWAYS brings LIGHT into the situation!
Always brings me Hope and Joy!
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path!

Lord I love you!
Thank you for always being here always loving me, always being faithful, always. My friend that sticks closer than a brother. Making sure I am never alone!

Lord you are the life within me
Lord you are the breath I breath
Lord you are the very beating of my heart
Lord you are

Lord you are the song within me
Lord you are the melody I'm singing
Lord you are rhythm moving my heart beat
Lord you are

Everything to me and more
Lord you are
Everything to me and more
Lord you are
Everything to me and more
Lord you are
Everything to me and more
And I will sing to you this new song
And I will sing to you this new song
Because

Lord you are the life within me
Because
Lord you are the breath I breath
Because
Lord you are the very beating of my heart
Because
Lord you are the very song within me - and -
Lord you are the melody I'm singing - and -
Lord you are rhythm moving my heart beat
Yes....Lord....You are!

words and music by: AmyColleen Klapp

12/17/12

Give me your gun - Do what I tell you - Bang Bang you're *******

A LITTLE GUN HISTORY - ANTI GUN HISTORY - GUN CONTROL HISTORY

In 1929, the Soviet Union established gun control. >From 1929 to 1953, about 20 million dissidents, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

In 1911, Turkey established gun control. From 1915 to 1917, 1.5 million Armenians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

Germany established gun control in 1938 and from 1939 to 1945, a total

of 13 million Jews and others who were unable to defend themselves were rounded up and exterminated.

China established gun control in 1935. From 1948 to 1952, 20 million political dissidents, unable to defend themselves were rounded up and exterminated.

Guatemala established gun control in 1964.

From 1964 to 1981,

100,000 Mayan Indians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

Uganda established gun control in 1970. From 1971 to 1979, 300,000 Christians, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

Cambodia established gun control in 1956. From 1975 to 1977, one million educated people, unable to defend themselves, were rounded up and exterminated.

Defenseless people rounded up and exterminated

in the 20th Century because of gun control: 56 million.

You won't see this data on the US evening news, or hear politicians disseminating this information.

Guns in the hands of honest citizens save lives and property and, yes, gun-control laws adversely affect only the law-abiding citizens.

Take note my fellow Americans, before it's too late!

The next time someone talks in favor of gun control, please remind them of this history lesson.

With guns, we are 'citizens'. Without them, we are 'subjects'.

During WWII the Japanese decided not to invade America

because they knew most Americans were ARMED!

If you value your freedom, please spread this anti-gun-control message to all of your friends.

12/16/12

I may not see it - Still I know it will happen

Hebrews 11:1

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

King James Version

Now faith is assurance of things hoped for, a conviction of things not seen.
American Standard Version

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

New International Version

Now faith is being sure we will get what we hope for. It is being sure of what we cannot see.

New Life Version

Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.

New Living Translation

Paintings by: Janice Van Cronkhite

So life goes on. When I take a look around, nothing really looks any different. But I know things are and will continue to be different.

I know things are not the same today as they were yesterday.
I know tomorrow, things will be different than they are today.
Even if it doesn't SEEM that different.
Even if I can't SEE a difference.
I KNOW this to be true.

Why do I say this? -------- How do I know this?
Simple
Because God said so.

"Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them." Mark 11:24

"Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. ¹⁵And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him." 1 John 5:14-15

"So the Lord said, “If you have faith as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be pulled up by the roots and be planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you." Luke 17:6

Yeah, so I take comfort in knowing and YOU SHOULD TOO, that God has my life situations in the palm of HIS HANDS and as I take pleasure to delight IN HIM He will (has) given (placed) His desires in my heart!
All that I have prayed for will most certainly come to full fruition!

God Bless!!

Love you all!

12/14/12

Today I found...

More love...

More forgiveness...

More appreciation.....

More hope....

Than I ever knew was possible.

In the wake of a sheer satanic massacre...as I stood on the outside looking in.

As my chest grew tighter and tighter - as tear drops turned to tear streams washing over my face.

I found myself feeling sheer rage for this senseless act of evil.

While at the same time today - through it - IN it - BECAUSE of it...

Today I found -

More love...

More forgiveness...

More appreciation.....

More hope....

Than I ever knew was possible.....for my very own children.

I love you Joshua - I love you Jeremy - I love you Jacob - I love you Lauren - I love you Kelly!

With all my heart - always have and always will forever!

Up to the Son and back!

"I love you THIS much"

12/13/12

Yeah.....sure.

Life has its ups and downs.
This is no big revelation. I am certain everyone reading this would agree.
Just over the natural course of things.....ya know, interacting with nature and people.
So this being the case why, pray tell, do certain peoples have to make it THEIR VOCATION in life to have absolutely NO COMMON SENSE?
Just curious......

12/12/12

So, what would YOU do...

If you found out you had a potentially life threatening disease and you had people (family) in your life you had not heard from in a long time?

Just wondering.

12/9/12

Today is the day I felt

God's broken heart.

I drove through a part of town known for it's heavy population of conservative Jews.

I had been driving for some time. Singing and ministering to the Lord for a while. There was a very sweet, intimate spirit in the car. I love driving around by myself I often do just to spend time alone with God. No one but me and the Lord. We have such intimate time together....unfettered.....It is truly awe inspiring.

Today as I drove, I took a different route. I drove a bit out of my normal routine. Down a long winding road Large homes and yards. It was beautiful . As I did, it was if a heavy blanket came over me. I literally felt it almost crushing me. It made it hard to breath. At the time I was singing love songs and ministering to the Lord.

Soon my love song became prophesy..."new songs" from Holy Spirit.... it wasn't too long after, my prophetic new songs turned into deep heavy wailing. My chest got tighter and I felt an insurmountable grief fill my spirit. I began to cry out with groaning - deep, loud and on going. Tears streaming down my face.

I knew instantly this - was not my grief. I also knew instantly whose grief it was. I began, as soon as it let up enough, to verbalize utterances of repentance and began to utter words of apology to try in some meager, humble, and what seemed to me to be completely inadequate attempt, to comfort HE whose grief it was.

Then, as suddenly as I had come into this neighborhood I had found my way out of it.

The weight on my chest lifted. I was able to breath again.

The grief subsided. Leaving only tears dropping one at a time to fall from my eyes down my already bright red cheeks.

Me? I was left in a place of question. For the first time in 20 minutes able to speak and at the same time not feeling I had adequate words to convey my thoughts. Still I attempted. I spoke and I asked,

"Lord why have you allowed me to feel your pain? Why?"

I went on to say,

"I am so sorry so many do not recognize you, do not love you, all you have done for them. I am so sorry. I can not even begin to imagine how you feel. I know how "I" feel...In my small world...and the rejection I live with from my loved ones. THIS, this....the pain you have allowed me to experience....YOUR pain....YOU are perfect. YOU have done NOTHING but love and bless and give of yourself. Lord, WHY have you allowed me to experience this? To what end? WHAT can I do? Just me..."

That's when God broke my heart when He answered me. He said,

"My precious daughter. Nothing. I do not wish for you to do anything for me. Simply having you here with me. Sharing with me my heart. My sorrow, as a husband would share the sorrow of his beloved wife and a wife her beloved husband. To know that you would desire to sit with me and care how I feel about all my children and love me that much.....this means more than you will ever realize. I love you."

Needless to say....I cried.....and that's when I realized that today is the day I felt God's broken heart.

12/1/12

I will

You’re All There Is For Me

Foxes have their holes Lord. Birds they have their nest.

But you say you have no place to rest.

Still I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.

For my Lord you’re all there is for me.

Still there are times I wonder. Can I keep pressing on?

The river’s flood keeps rising;

The fire’s burning strong;

Lord how long?

“Fear not I have redeemed you.

I have called you by name.

My child, whom I have chosen,

Whom I formed and whom I’ve made.

Do not fear for I am with you.

I am the Lord Almighty God.

Because you’re mine and I love you;

You will survive against all odds;

For, I am God.”

I may not understand Lord; All you have for me.

But you say don’t worry just believe.

So I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.