Someone loves you

His name is Yahushua

His name is Jesus

So Tell Me. Please - Answered

What do you do

 When you come home one day 

To find your heart is broken

Into so many pieces you can't even find them all

By someone(s) you never imagined would ever do such a thing? 

I don't know either.

I'll let you know tomorrow.

or 

The next day.

or

As soon as I figure it out.

Promise

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7/7/2012 My Answer (for now any - how)

So I said I would let ya'all know what you should do

When you come home one day 

To find your heart is broken

Into so many pieces you can't even find them all

By someone(s) you never imagined would ever do such a thing.

When I figured it out.

I haven't "exactly" figured it out per say 

HOWEVER

I did get some direction.

If you click here

It will take you to another blog post of mine. 

 The Lord is speaking to me about betrayal.

It is a "relative" feeling.

We (you, me, anyone) can feel as though no one else
  has ever felt the horror of our pain (what we are feeling at any given time) before.
Never experienced what we are going through - ever.

In a sense this can be and probably is very true in many cases.

However - When it comes to living through pain of betrayal of a loved one or loved ones.

This is something many can relate to.

Circumstances surrounding the betrayal may be different,

 but the excruciating , undeniable, unrelenting, pain is the same.

Today on my way to work the Lord asked me how I thought Joseph must have felt.

Yeah, you heard me right. Joseph from Biblical times.

Joseph youngest son of Jacob. (for a while) Beloved,  son of Jacob.

His older brothers, whom, he loved and looked up to, out of jealousy actually thought about killing him but one of his brothers Reuben talked the others into sparing his life. So instead they stripped Joseph of his garment and threw into a cistern and ended up selling him like a common slave.

Out of Jealousy.

They betrayed Joseph. They betrayed their Father.

In the hopes of getting rid of what was robbing them of attention.

It didn't work.

In stead God's hand was at work and though it was many years in the making

 it was God's Will that was accomplished.

Because Joseph belonged to God

He felt betrayal - insurmountable betrayal - still - Joseph over came betrayal with love for God.

There are many many more examples in the Bible

Jesus is the one example that I cling to above all.

So MY answer?

What do you do

 When you come home one day 

To find your heart is broken

Into so many pieces you can't even find them all

By someone(s) you never imagined would ever do such a thing?

Fall down upon the lap of the Lord.

Trust - in His unfailing Love 

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Sunday July 8,2012
Continued my reading in 1 Samuel
Through the life of young (King) David - WOW, how many times have I read this portion of scripture!
Many! I can say that! Just so happens this is where I am right now in my reading and also where I am in life!

Of course this will have to wait for another Blog Post!
Blessings!

It's True You Know

EVERYONE'S Going to LIVE FOREVER 

 Questions is 

 WHERE will your Spirit end up living for eternity?

THE CHOICE IS OURS 

Will WE live eternity with loved ones in eternal peace with our creator? - OR - WILL WE LIVE in eternal TORMENT separated from everyone we know and love - in total darkness for ALL ETERNITY?




 

 Again

THE CHOICE IS OURS  

Where do YOU wish to spend the rest of eternity when you leave this earth?

As long as we have breath in our bodies - it is not too late to choose where we spend eternity. 

However

 there is only ONE WAY to ETERNAL LIFE with peace and loved ones with God - our Creator. 

This way being through Yeshua/Jesus 

HE is the Son of God - God Himself made man

 He is the Way - the Truth - the Life - No man comes to God but through Him

John 3;16-17" tells us, "For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him." 

So, come.....cast your care on the HIM for he cares for you....1 Peter 5:7

Just come as you are - and call out to Him. He will be there for you. That is WHY He came.

If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9

THIS LIFE we live now is fleeting - when we die our spirits will live forever. I know "I" want to live in a beautiful place with those I love - In peace - joy - and no more sorrow - with God, my creator. The way HE originally intended it to be from the beginning, BEFORE SIN MESSED things up. How 'bout you?

*Just sayin'

Shalom 

Do YOU Remember These Expandable Balls? - I DO!

Do You Remember THESE Expandable Balls? 

I do.

I used to think they were so cool. They were relatively small to begin with and then you could just grab hold of them with your hands, fingers....and well...you would need the strength of your arms then you would pull them open in this HUGE ball that was large enough to contain a small pet.

My kids loved them so much it was sometimes one of the first things they would run to play with we went into the specialty toy store at the mall.

They came in many different colors! They were awesome!

Well, this morning as I was getting ready for work as I was chatting with my Lord about a great many things in life. I became a but over whelmed. As I sometimes can.   (uhhh - no kiddin'!)

I mean, come on, let's be real here....time's are a changin' and fast....am I wrong on that one?

Now I realize we all have our own issues to deal with....our own crosses to bear....but add that to the fact that the world is sinking lower and lower into a deeper state of depravity.......AND the fact the our very own U.S. of A. is starring in it's very own sequel of the movie "Speed" only instead of a poor unwilling, victim for a bus driver - we have crazzed, power hungry, eccentric for a leader.

For those of you who aren't familiar with the movie "Speed" is. It's  an action/thriller film where a bus becomes the focus of a bomber and extortionist. The only way to keep the bus from crashing and exploding and killing everyone is to keep it driving at 50 mph. 

So as I was talking with my Lord this morning and feeling the burden of not only my own issues but the issues and burdens of those closest to me, my family, my co-workers and neighbors and those of the country I grew up in and the rest of the entire world.

I began to feel some what over whelmed.....yet again.

However, once again....my precious, Holy, Lord and master Yeshua HaMashiach graced me with His presence and once again filled me with the peace of G-d that passes all understanding that guards my heart and mind!

He shared a word or two (or three)---with a visual that was to me quite powerful and I thought I would pass it along! I truly hope you are just as blessed!

My convo with the Master went something like this.

"Oh my Lord, my precious, Holy Lord---Yeshua---Holy Father! Lord G_d!  ALMIGHTY!  Please! Help!   How?---I mean---What? ---Where? - You have laid all these things upon my heart – All these people - I thank you Lord for your love - I see all your grace in my life - Thank you, thank you.  Lord, thank you. But HOW? - My prayers - There is just sooooo much - Where do I start?  I mean I know I have started - but there is just so much - I thank you so much Lord - Sometimes I just don't see how - I pray and pray - but I thank you - Lord -  I am babbling - Oh Yeshua –I just love you....."

(tears running down my newly painted[make-up just put on] face)

Then the Lord broke in.  Clear as if you were sitting here with me now talking to me.

I saw the picture you see on the top of this post, Only difference is that the sphere was multi colored.

The Lord spoke to my heart in my head and said to me,

"Oh Amy....I love you." 

Then I smiled and answered back, "I am so glad you know my thoughts Lord better than I. Thank you Lord."

He continued, "Amy you aren't required to change the world. Nor are you expected to. You can't. That's my job. 

You ask me how. Well, come to me my Amy Colleen - that is how. Everything you need is in me. 

You ask what. To do the will of our Father -  But then you already know that.

 You ask where. Where you are now, my precious Amy Colleen. Right where you are. 

Let go of the past for it will give the enemy power to paralyze you.

It will make you ineffective in the work the Father has for you to do.
 now and in the future. 

Amy - do not worry and do not fear. Do not concern yourself with how much there is to do. I am the Lord of the harvest and until I return there will always  be tasks at hand. More than there are laborers to accomplish."

At these words I was so awestruck and filled with a certain Holy Fear and (believe it or not) still feeling a wee bit over whelmed and answered back - my response:

"Oh Lord, thank you, thank you, thank you my glorious Lord for knowing my heart and listening to my heart and not giving ear to my grumblings - But still Lord - I feel as though all I do is pray and pray and pray and still there are so many things that I can't even see the slightest movement on - Lord? Why? - Others come to me as well with this same question - wanting to know why? I don't know what to tell them. Please Lord - what's going on?"

(I love this)

His answer -

"Amy Colleen. You see the Sphere?"

"Yes, Lord. I do. I was wondering about that...why I saw it so vividly in my mind."

"Remember how it works?"

"Yes....It starts out very small and tight....and you need to take both hands and use your fingers and grab hold of it and pull it with your arms and it opens up into a huge open sphere."

"Exactly."

"What does that have to do with my prayers?"

"My Amy...it is not your prayers that are getting in the way or are not effective. Your prayers are powerful and effective. As long as my children abide in me I will abide in them . If I abide in them they have all the power resident within them that I have resident within me. So you see your prayers are not in question."

"Than what is, Lord?"

(I actually *heard* the Lord smile - that was pretty cool in and of itself actually)

"My precious Amy, you are getting in the way. Not intentionally, but as you are running about to and fro trying to accomplish many different tasks all on your own strength with your own love and good will. I never intended for you to carry all these burdens. I took upon myself the burdens of the world, carried them down the road to Calvary and still to this day my heart is broken for many who have not yet come home. Again...this is my job."

I still wasn't fully understanding what the Lord was saying to me just yet - but in my minds eye I was beginning to see what the Lord was going to say next - (this was awesome!)

"Sooooo - Lord?  What AM I supposed to be doing with all this burden I am feeling and what does it have to do with the sphere?"

"The sphere is the world....your world.....family, friends, those closest to you as well as the world in general. Amy, you are so faithful to run around from place to place, trying to make it better, little bit here ......little bit there.....think about it Amy."

I did. I imagined as the Lord spoke. I saw myself running to and from one side of the world (the sphere) pulling it out and then as soon as I got one side out and ran to the other to pull it out the side that I previously pulled out collapsed. This happened over and over and over again. I was so aggravated and exhausted just even "thinking " about it ! 

"Wow." was all I could say.

"See, it makes you tired and that is thinking about it doesn't it? " 

(Amazing how the Lord knows our thoughts)

"Amy, precious Amy, at best you can run around with good intentions and bring a smile to peoples hearts. But to see change - to see the sphere grow - I need to grab hold of it and pull it with MY HANDS until it opens up. That's when you will SEE the CHANGE you desire to see. 

Your part in all this?

To abide in me - to trust and obey.

 In this alone will you will be able to fulfill the will of the Father. 

Then will find great favor in His sight.

 Amy, I do not drive my sheep, it is the butcher that drives the sheep to the slaughter house. I am the great shepherd. My sheep know me and hear my voice. 

I lead my sheep besides still water and give them green pastures to where they can rest their soul.

 Do not fear. I am with you always and I hear your every prayer.

As you abide in me and I abide in you.

 I will take hold of YOUR WORLD and change it forever."

Dream of Darkness

Darkness was everywhere. It was so strange. I felt as if I had been here before. I recognized the people and the surroundings. Everything. The only difference was the darkness; and with the darkness there was a  dank chill in the air. Strangely enough the people were bustling about. Going to and fro like a normal day. We were in a downtown market place. In the city. There was chatter among everyone. What you would expect to hear except the sound had a deep timber to it. The peoples heads were hung low. There seemed to be a visible oppression hanging over them like a fog.

I was there among them in the market place, though they did not see me. Yet at the same time as I made my way through the crowd, each person moved out of the way for me as if they were compelled to do so. They moved completely out of my way. So much so that I couldn't speak to them or even get a good look at them to get their attention. I tried. I wanted so badly to reach out to them. I felt so badly for them. Everyone was so sad. I could feel their loneliness, their pain, their suffering. It was so very dark. More so than night time. Different even than night time. Almost as if there was an opaque, black, blanket of demonic fog or haze that had settled in around the city market place.

I tried for a while to reach out to the people. Then I just stood and watched and cried.

As Jesus spoke to me,

"Be the light you were meant to be. Shine for me. Let me shine through you. Come walk with me and let  my Holy Spirit have full control. See Great and marvelous things. The glorious mysteries of  my kingdom. You, you, are what I desire. I gave myself for you. I gave myself for them. Do you love me ? I love you. Walk with me. Take my hand and walk with me to the true promised land. See the glory of the God all around. Share what I have given you....with those in darkness. I love you ....love them for me."

Broken Heart

Ever have a heart so broken that it took your breath away?
One that no one seem to understand, one that never went away?

A heart break so tremendous, so crushing and intense.
That there was no way to over come it's sheer existence?

Try and try you may, day after day.
Busy morning until night; bury the feelings goes the fight.
No use you find; in the battle of the mind.
Your heart wins this one again.
Until this heart break takes it's mend.

A kind of heart break you never knew existed before.
One that grows daily more and more?
A heart break that tears a soft heart apart.
One you didn't even know, the reason for which it did start?

Try and try I may, day after day.

Busy morning until night, to bury the feelings goes the fight.

No use I find; in the battle of the mind.

My heart wins this one again.

Until this heart break takes it's mend.

Such a heart break. Such tears; going on now for over a year.

"Why?" Is now the question "I" ask... in fear.

Heart break should be but a step closer to thee.

That's what it says in Psalm thirty four eighteen. *

    

Try and try I may, day after day.

Busy morning until night, to bury the feelings I fight.

No use I find; in the battle of the mind.

My heart wins this one again.

Until this heart break takes it's mend.

But this heart break is taking it's toll.

Stripping joy from this ol' soul.

Come thou Majesty, my Lord my true friend!

Faithfully to my heart break, please put an end!

Day after day, busy morning until night.

Take my broken heart a flight.

No use I find, in the battle of the mind.

You alone will change these times.

My heart wins this one again.

Because you alone will make this heart mend.

 July 12, 2008

How many times can a heart be broken and still be repaired?

Take a 1000 piece puzzle with three pieces missing

Throw it to the ground and then scoop it up place it in a small box and place it in my chest…..This is my heart.

I feel as though I have almost completed this puzzle so many times and then, out of nowhere the puzzle explodes and falls to the ground, and I am left with a gapping whole in my chest.

Oh Lord, I can’t do it any more

I have never like puzzles to begin with!

Now…I like them even less….and now….where my heart used to beat; it just hurts.

I need you, Lord.  I need you to pick up the broken pieces of my heart, for me…and put them all back together…..please.

Piece by piece

One at a time

My Heavenly Father gently puts each piece of my heart in line

Counting each one

No matter which design

My Daddy God is sure each broken piece to find

Sitting in amazement

At my Lord’s feet

I watch as My Daddy God accomplishes this amazing feat

A struggle in tears;

A work for me

Is for God, a simple act of compassionate love that flows freely

Surrounded in Glory

Healing in His Wings

I am filled with Peace as His Heavenly Hosts Sing

Praises to the Lord

Mighty God above

Lord God of all, filled with compassion and love

Praise to the Lord!

Mighty God above

Lord God of all…..FILLED with compassion and love!

Thank YOU!!!!!
You've done it again!
AmyColleen

   * ["The LORD is close to the brokenhearted 

   and saves those who are crushed in spirit."]

Singing in the Caves

Singing in the Caves
A Dream

I was in an under ground prison. It was a cave with bars to keep us in. It was cold, dark and wet.  I was with many other people. There was great sadness and much sorrow. It was a prison for those who believed on the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.  Although everyone that was in there had been put in prison for there boldness in preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ. Their spirits had begun to grow weary after being imprisoned in such harsh conditions for so long. Discouragement had begun to set in and people began to speak words of despair. I began to pray and the Spirit of the Lord came upon me. My prayers soon turned into "new songs" of hope. I began to prophesy  "in song" - words of encouragement from the throne of God the Father.  I began to share the Father’s heart through my songs.

This was one of the songs I sang...

The Friend You've Wanted and The Friend You Need    

    

I often wonder how I might be.

The friend you've wanted and the friend you need.

How I might share your worries and your fears.

How I might wipe away your tears.

Tell me.

Where do you go, when you're feeling oh so low?

Who do you turn to, when there's no place left to go?

When the ones who you love, seem so far away,

These are the times, I long to hear you say.

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"Where are you?  Where are you, friend that I knew?

I need you.  I need you to help me make it through.

Where are you?  Where are you, friend that I love?

Come right now.  See me through.  Send your love from above."

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You'll never know just what it means to me,

To walk and talk just you and me;

To share your joys and your miseries,

Have you forgotten, that I died for these?

So ~

Child, come to me when you're feeling oh so low.

Child, turn to me when there's no place left to go.

When the ones who you love, seem so far away,

Child, I'm right here, by your side, here to stay.

Go ahead. Call for me.

Child I'm right here.

Go ahead. And you'll see,

How happy you can be,

How happy we will be.

Copyright January 2001All rights reserved

     By: Amy Colleen (song)


If you would like to hear this song sung
leave me a comment below
and I will sing it and post it
Thanks!