Alone are the Lonely Ones in Deepest Despair

Silence captivates - in a loud unmanageable way
Road blocks of words - deafening stillness lay
Screaming whispers - of deepest despair

Every turn - each breath - every stare

Completely alone - in the midst of a crowd
Every touch point - loneliness surrounds 
You over there - Me over here
Alone are the lonely ones - in deepest despair
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"Alone are the lonely ones in deepest despair."

Oh how I remember - I was once, "the lonely one in deepest despair!"
No more!
I once felt, "alone in the midst of a crowd."
No more!
I once could not stay in a room without ambient noise of some kind, at all times because of the ‘screaming whispers’ of my past. Afraid of the deafening silence.
No more!
I have been set free!
Halleluiah! By the love of Jesus. I have come to receive the Amazing Grace of God and come to know Jesus our Messiah! Through him I have been set free from all the above. I no longer have to be afraid of my own thoughts.

Yes - Sometimes I feel so helpless, because as much as I remember what it was like to live in darkness and despair, (and I do remember) much of the time I feel so helpless. I feel as though I am so ill equipped to be able to adequately share with everyone just how incredibly, wonderfully, awesome, loving, gracious and beautiful the Lord has been and IS to me.
To be able to adequately share how he lifted me up (literally) from death's door. How he put a new song in my heart!!! 

Heaven Awaits

Warm, soft, strong,
His arms hold me close.
Tenderness, peace, love.
He speaks with His eyes.

Together in silence.
Face to face at last.
Tears of joy shed together.
No memory of my past.

A love to die for.
A death to live for.
The two become one.
My Lord and me.

Heaven awaits.

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AmyColleen

Alone

Alone in the midst of the crowd.


I don't really know what to do. Should I stand here, or move out of the way?


Alone in the midst of the crowd.


I don't really know what to say. Should I speak out loud?


Alone in the midst of the crowd.


I don't really know why I'm here. Does anyone even see me?


Lord, I am so alone. Even here in the midst of your people.
I'm so alone in the midst of this crowd.


Hello? Can you you hear me?
Hello? Does anyone even see me?
I'm here in your midst. Every time we gather together. 
When we sing ~ when we pray.
Do you even hear me when I say,
"Hello?"


Alone in the midst of the crowd.


Please let us all (consciously) take time to "notice" those around us that we may see often but may not often enough take the time to see. 


Life is too short to over look those closest to us. Especially when they may be the ones who need us most.


This poem, was inspired by a compilation of exactly what I fore mentioned. People and situations that the Lord had personally brought to MY attention that I am close to. People I have somewhat neglected, assuming all was well. When in fact, quite the opposite. 


As a my dear, precious friend always says to me, "You can only do what you can do."
And though I agree this is true, I would like to add, "How many of us are actually doing THAT?"


God Bless You with the secrets of His Heart as YOU seek His Face in the Riches of The Holy Scripture!
AmyColleen

A Prayerfully Personalized 3 Minute Scripture Lift

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“I will extol the Lord at all times;

His praise will always be on my lips.

My soul will boast in the Lord;

Let the afflicted hear and rejoice.”

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~ Promises ~

“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;

he delivers them from all their troubles.

The Lord is close to the broken hearted

And saves those who are crushed in spirit.

A righteous man may have many troubles,

But the Lord delivers him from them all;”

“Trust in the Lord and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

Delight yourself in the Lord

And he will give you the desires of your heart.”

“Better the little that the righteous have

than the wealth of many wicked.”

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“I desire to do your will, O my God;

your law is within my heart.

I proclaim your righteousness in the great assembly;

I do not seal my lips,

As you know O Lord.

I do not hide your righteousness in my heart;

I speak of your faithfulness and salvation.

I do not conceal your love and your truth from the great assembly.”

“I do not trust in my bow,

my sword does not bring my victory;

but you give me victory over my enemies,

you put my adversaries to shame.

In God I make my boast all day long,

And I will praise your name forever.”

“I waited patiently for the Lord;

he turned to me and heard my cry.

He lifted me out of the slimy pit,

Out of the mud and the mire;

He set my feet on a rock

And gave me a firm place to stand.

He put a new song in my mouth,

A hymn of praise to our God.”

“If the Lord delights in a man’s way,

he makes his steps firm;

though he stumble, he will not fall,

for the Lord upholds him with his hand.”

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“Cast your cares on the Lord

and he will sustain you;

he will never let the righteous fall.”

Be Blessed with every good blessing in our Precious Savior and Lord Jesus!

Scriptures, in order in which they were written, taken from the book of Psalms:

Psalms  34: 1,2,17,18,19 -  37: 3,4,16 -  40:8,9,10, -  44:8,9,10  - 40:1,2,3, -  37:23,24  -  55:22

He believes in you...

Because You Believe in Me

I am here.

You are here in me.

Because of this I know I can be;

all that you say you want me to be.

I’ve tried so many times.

I’ve climbed this mountain before.

I’ve done all that you’ve asked me to do.

I’ve lived through the things you’ve brought me through.

Here I sit, still;

waiting on you.

To make me all that you said I should be.

I don’t see how but I know that you will, because you believe in me.

You’ve always believed in me; the only one who ever believed in me.

With you all things are possible.

With you, before I see it, it’s done.

With you, before I’ve begun to fight, the battle is already won.

You are the Almighty and you are my God.

You are the Lord of Lords and you are my God.

You are the Creator of the world and you are my God.

You are Alpha and Omega; the beginning and the end and you are my God.

You are Jesus, Savior of the world; and you are my God.

Because you are the Omnipotent and Supreme One; what you say shall be done.

What you have said in fact is already done. Though my eyes do not see it yet, it is so.

I am already become what I do not even know.

Because you believe in me.

You believe in me.

You’ve always believed in me.

When there was nothing in me worth believing in;

still proudly you remained my friend.

Always there for me; looking out for me.

Because you are who you are; because you said it should be so;

I shall become that which I do not even know.

According to your good purpose I will act and grow.

I will become all that you have designed for me to become.

For you are God.

For you are my God.

I have trusted in you and you love me.

You have spoken, so it shall be.  You have begun your good work in me.

You believe in me. You have already given your best for me.

Because you believe in me so much; now I believe in me.

Come, Finish your work in me.

By: Amy Colleen Copyright March 2002 all rights reserved

No More Job's

                                     Hey there, how you doing?
I've been up since three o'clock this morning. It is now currently five thirty a.m. I have had a piece of toast and a cup of coffee and spent time in prayer and conversation with the Lord and some serious time in deep thought.

In just a few days I will be fifty years old. That's half a century old.
To be perfectly honest, I don'y desire to live a full century. I don't believe I will. At least not here anyway. I truly believe the Lord will have come back by then to establish his kingdom for the millennial reign by then, at least I hope so.

I have lived a hard life. Of course that term is relative. There are always those that have lived harder lives and many who have it much easier. Let's just say I am quite thankful for the promise of God that he turns everything around for the good of those that love him and are the called according to his good purpose! I count on that!

I have learned also to use my life circumstances to catapult me ever so  much closer to the feet of Jesus. Although, I won't lie, at times this has proven to be very difficult, but Holy Spirit has given me the strength and taken me by the hand, even times picked me up and carried me through. It seems still, after waking with the Lord for 35 years, I seem to face insurmountable trials at times I know beyond a shadow of a doubt G_d is with me. Holy Spirit guides me and Jesus is still my best friend.

I recently heard a preacher say, "Now I know we all go through hard times. Through trials. We may feel like we have been betrayed by loved ones and lost friends and everything like Job. But I don't think any of us (in the world today) are any where as righteous as Job was.......So it's not that bad.."

Well, ever since I heard that statement I haven't been able to "kick it".

You know, that is just not true.

We all are....just as righteous as Job. Those of us that are children of the most High G-D, that is! We are  made so by the Blood of the Lamb!
The scripture reference from Job 1:8 reads, Then the LORD said to Satan, "Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil."


A few things to consider here:
For starters and I believe most important, we, you and I, are made righteous by the blood of Jesus, not by works. (so no one should be able to boast about it)  Ephesians 2:9


Also, although the sacrifice was in fact made for all men before time began (one of the mysteries) Job lived in a time before Jesus our Messiah had been born into this world and had laid down his life  and been crucified. The world and area where Job was from was exceedingly wicked. G-d was approached by Satan and G-d described Job to Satan  accurately in comparison to those around him.  


And then, I believe any one of us can get to that level where Job was in his life. A level where G-d knows our love, trust and faithfulness; for, in and to him would not wax or wain. This being said, I believe also our adversary and accuser Satan may just as well come before our Heavenly Father on our behalf like he did on Job's. I have found no scripture  to support otherwise.


 Job's life story was divinely placed in the Holy Scripture for a reason....for US to TAKE encouragement from it. The Lord is interested in our eternal soul. In a relationship with US. That is why He came to earth and laid down His life for us.





G_d is Holy.
Jesus is Holy.
Holy Spirit is HOLY.
G_d is ONE G_d.
Just as we are one being so is He who created us. It's not that big of a mystery. 
Body - soul - spirit.

So if you are experiencing some truly difficult times in your life.....and you are truly seeking the will of the Lord. Seeking the face of G-d. Don't give in to the enemy's lies that you have been forgotten by G-D or you are unworthy or don't have enough faith or anything like that.

Stay IN the Word of G-D....in the fellowship of true believers....in constant communication (prayer) with the Lord.... and stand firm!

Love to you in Yeshua HaMashiach!

You’re All There Is For Me

Foxes have their holes Lord. Birds they have their nest.

But you say you have no place to rest.

Still I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.

For my Lord you’re all there is for me.

Still there are times I wonder. Can I keep pressing on?

The river’s flood keeps rising;

The fire’s burning strong;

Lord how long?

“Fear not I have redeemed you.

I have called you by name.

My child, whom I have chosen,

Whom I formed and whom I’ve made.

Do not fear for I am with you.

I am the Lord Almighty God.

Because you’re mine and I love you;

You will survive against all odds;

For, I am God.”

I may not understand Lord; All you have for me.

But you say don’t worry just believe.

So I’ll follow you. Where ever you may lead.

For my Lord you’re all there is for me.

So let the river flow Lord. Let the fire burn.

You are God Almighty.

And I have your word.

You are with me.

Copyright 2001 All rights reserved

By: Amy Colleen (song)

Ephesians 6:10-18

 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. ¹¹ Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. ¹² For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. ¹³ Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. ¹⁴ Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, ¹⁵ and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. ¹⁶ In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. ¹⁷ Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. ¹⁸ And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.