No Passover Here

It's Passover AND Passion Week.

Two monumental times for both the Jew and the Gentile both. The Jew and Jewish believer in Messiah. Celebrate Passover remembering the deliverance of God's mighty hand. A week long celebration. Many Jewish believers will plan there entire year to take vacation during Passover and family members will travel across the country, some even fly over seas to be with family to celebrate this time together.

Just the same for the Gentile believer in Yeshua is Passion Week leading up to crucifixion Friday (also known as Good Friday). Followed by Resurrection Sunday.

These are such important and such defining High Holy Holidays for both the Jews and the Gentiles.

As they should be.

I just find it sad I guess, as I lay here tonight on my bed, thinking of those I know, whom I love dearly, celebrating Passover. I know they are enjoying a glorious celebration. As one would expect, and we are actually commanded to do. Yet, I know hearts are not clear.

I wonder, in times like this. In these circumstances...That as laughing and smiling ensue for the week - as the celebration takes place in the house -where they are - is our Heavenly Farther smiling too? Or is He sharing the pain of feeling forgotten and rejected - broken hearted and abandoned ?
Passover has not come to this house this year. I feel the pain - I share my daughters tears. If "I" do - How much more does our Heavenly Father?

He sent His only begotten son, to die for US... in our place So we would be reconciled to HIM....to bring forgiveness - to bring reconciliation - make us one accord.....GOD has forgiven us soooo much...saying-

Thank you is not - can not - simply never will be enough - just said. My life poured out - a living sacrifice for you - Everything I am is yours - take it all even more than I said.

I love you .

Jelly Beans and Life

Eating the best and most yummy jelly beans first. 

Then of course you end up with the not so yummy and delicious jelly beans. Hmmm, do I continue? 

This is the real quandary I find myself in. 

Each and every year.

But of course I do. Continue that is. Eating the jelly beans. 

The not so yummy and delicious ones. Still, even further I take this quest - ending up munching on the yucky ones that find themselves all alone at the end of the candy dish. 

Yep. That is right. You heard me. 

I actually end up eating the ones I don't like.

*CrAzY* - I know.

Why? Why do I do this?

Be darned if I know.

Year after year I go through this ridiculous ritual. 

Now mind you !

It can't be just any ol' jelly beans - oooooh no! 

It has got to be Brach's Classic Jelly Bird Eggs

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Oddly enough - I find it some what comforting.

I am convinced I am lulled into a non-existent or past existent world (by a massive over dose of sugar and chemical color food die) one that is void of any sadness or absurd interpersonal relationships.

One where my Mum is still here on earth and I actually see my adult children and get to see my grand children. A world, here, where my heart is not broken  all the time by those I love the most. A world  where I can enjoy the hugs  of my kids and grand babies like God created me to! 

Yes. Yes. That is why I do it. For the sheer joy of this silliness.

  

Which came first - the chicken or the egg?

Well - obviously the chicken.
and
We love him, because he first loved us.

1 John 4:19

“I tell you, her sins—and they are many—have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love.” 

Luke 7:47

Two of my (many) favorite verses in the Bible.

These two verses are a canopy of complete grace and love.

The first  1 John 4:19 a constant reminder of who (God himself) is the initiator of this most wonderful, passionate and life giving relationship I find myself completely consumed with.

The second verse, Luke 7:47, reminds me from whence I have come and invites me with continued grace to worship with fullness of my life. Uninhibited and lavishing upon my Lord as the lover of my soul my most expensive perfume.

For I have been forgiven much and I shall show much love.

I will never apologize for my lavish - out spoken - adoration of the one who reached down and grabbed me out of hell's domain.

שבחי אדונים

Forever I will sing His praise!

As long as I have breathe in this body I will make known to all nations the goodness of God!

I will proclaim to all and in the presence of all - the Glory of God!

For the life and joy and love my Lord has given me! 

 The most amazing thing of all. The God of all creation. Is in love with me. 
So, yeah - I am in love with him. 

I am my Beloveds and He is Mine

Faith

Is like the wind which blows where it wishes. We hear the sound of it, but do not know where it comes from nor where it is going. Yet it stirs everything in its path.

Oh that I may have such a faith!

Have you ever just stopped?

Just stopped and thought about such things?

I have. 

Especially just recently.

Faith, to me,  has always seemed to be an act of will, only.

I have never thought of faith as something that just happens, as I suggested in my first sentence in this blog post. But I believe it can actually be that way.  For me, now, it is very much so, becoming just that.

Not just believing God can But believing God will

In the midst of our need comes the wind of Heaven

Touching our soul like glorious leaven

Holy Spirit knowing just what we need

Touching and meeting every single need.

In the midst of chaos all around. Being able to rest.

During stress unconscionable. Joy wins this test.

Should despair creep into our heart. Gust of hope make it depart.

 In deluge of attack on our mind.

Faith rise up - like no other kind!

Out of nowhere peace, like a river floods our soul.

Joy bubbles up, within us, and no-one  knows.

There is pain, yes. There is betrayal, yes.

Oh but there is the faith that blows in on it's own.

Like the wind from the North - when sorrow is home.

It comes and it blows and it fills your soul.

With beauty for ashes and faith for fear.

Once again I am jubilant and my mind is clear! 

Faith has brought me - to this place.

I stand in His presence. Gaze upon His face.

I am my beloveds and He is mine.

It has been this way all the time.

Faith

Thoughts at Midnight

Sometimes it just hits me. Out of nowhere. I will be sitting reading. Or I could be driving to the store, on the phone at work, or actively engaged in a conversation that has absolutely nothing at all to do with my children or grand children. That's when it happens. I see their face, in my minds eye or I hear their voice or laugh. My heart is instantly stirred. When it is my daughters I think about I always have an instant smile that appears. When my thoughts are drawn to my sons and their families, a plethora of emotions begin to flood my heart and mind. Starting of course with sadness. They are so far away both In distance and also I have not heard from them for so very long.  I miss them so much I can't begin to describe how I feel. 

I haven 't written about it lately. I dunno know why, exactly. 

I have NEVER been good about writing when I am sad - -or - expressing sad emotions in pen and paper.

I am sure there are plenty Dr Freud's out there who are just waiting to read blog post's written in the thick of sadness so they can give their expertise counsel.

haha - well I am not the perfect subject for them that is for sure!

Perhaps that is one of the main reasons I have not been as transparent as I could be on this subject matter.

I know that all is well - with my soul. It most truly is. I, like King David in the book of Psalms in the Bible, take solace in vocalizing to God my hardships and at the same time recognize my humanness and the fact that He, God, is my help - my -provider - my shield - my portion. That in the end I am not only okay, but absolutely taken care of and perfectly at peace in the hand of my Heavenly Father.

I am simply God's own Amy Colleen.
A lover of God. A lover of people.
A wife, a mother and a grammy.
That pretty much sums it up.

Life is kinda hard. Well actually it's more than kinda hard. It can be down right horrible at times! I know for me, there are a great many times I know that if it hadn't been for the relationship I had with Yeshua - I would not have been able to carry on.  I would not have been able to take  my next breath. Have any hope at all -.because of how hard life's circumstances have been at times. Plain and simple.
Even now,  though I may not be "desperate" because of the circumstances that surround me in my life I have to say it  is because of my relationship with my God. My life's circumstances are quite difficult, and could, if I didn't have my anchor Yeshua,  most likely would, take me down - make me desperate. Though not - because I DO HAVE HIM.

Instead I find strength. Instead I find love.
 Instead I find peace.
Instead I find faith.
 Instead I find hope.

So

I am still. I know you are God.

I am still. I wait.

I am still. You are Holy.

I am still. I wait for You.

I am still. I know you are God.
You are Holy.

You are faithful.
You are true.
You keep your word.  I will follow You.

Plain and simple.
And You oh Lord?

For me You say,

"Love for You is all I have

Not one but each I choose

I wish to shower blessing

Desire streams from me to you

I love you all each the same

My desire never shall be undone

Some come and some stay away

Free will is my gift of love

My choice my life eternal

Turn to me and live

I love you with my life."

Misty is singing my heart through her worship song  below!

POLITICS

I do not USUALLY post anything political 

but 

Had to post this speech - Sarah Palin spoke at the CPAC and brought the audience to it's feet  several times! 

And Sarah is right on!

Don't Close Your Eyes

“They also will answer, ‘Lord, when did we see you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or needing clothes or sick or in prison, and did not help you?’

“He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

 “Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”

Matthew 25

In a time of acceleration, both natural and supernatural,

there is no yet no place for anyone male or female, old or young, rich or poor, to  cast aside such as those in this video.

For we are all one in the body of Christ.

There is neither Jew no Gentile, neither slave nor free, nor is there male nor female, for we are all one in Christ Jesus.

Galatians 3:28

Beloved - My heart is grieved.

As I watch this video and others like it. As I read the news from across the world about the torture of fellow believers. My heart is pained as if I could feel a sword pierce it through. 

Here in America we have not yet begun to feel the pain of tribulation. Yet it has begun, none the less. Not here so much. 

Oh we think because we can't pay our credit card bills. Or we loose our homes. Tribulation has begun.

This is traumatic. Don't get me wrong. Economic hardship soon to be disaster is in fact traumatic. Still, it is nothing like what our brothers and sisters in the Lord are face with and going through every day - all over the globe.

So much of the time - I have been guilty of it as well - we read about and desire, what we like to term, "The church of the book of Acts" ,

Acts chapter 2 It may just be me, but I have notice a bit of imbalance when I hear teaching on this chapter. Seems the focus gets stuck on the fun and exciting, Pentecostal, Holy Ghost Fire portion. You know where the book of Joel is quoted and speaks of in the last days?

“‘In the last days, God says,
    I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
    your young men will see visions,
    your old men will dream dreams.
 Even on my servants, both men and women,
    I will pour out my Spirit in those days,
    and they will prophesy.
 I will show wonders in the heavens above
    and signs on the earth below,
    blood and fire and billows of smoke.
 The sun will be turned to darkness
    and the moon to blood
    before the coming of the great and glorious day of the Lord.
 And everyone who calls
    on the name of the Lord will be saved.’" 

Which is awesome! Don't misunderstand me.

I like fun and exciting,Pentecostal, Holy Ghost Fire as much as the next God's Girl! My thing here is that there is a reason for all that Fire and Fun in the Holy Ghost!  If we travel on down to the next paragraph we will see......it leads us to  "The Fellowship of the Believers"in verse 42. Which brings me back to the video and all of our Suffering Siblings in Christ across the globe.

^"42 They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. ⁴³ Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles.⁴⁴ All the believers were together and had everything in common. ⁴⁵ They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. ⁴⁶ Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts,⁴⁷ praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved."

"Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ."

Galatians 6:2

"And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord's people."

Ephesians 6:18

This is most definitely a serious post. I will be surprised if 2 outta 10 read it all the way through. I will be even more surprised if I get a single like.  That is okay. I didn't post it for likes or for views. Or to be nice. 

I am in the same boat as anyone else. I am preaching to myself here.

Can we ? Should we ?  Each one, sell all our possessions and exit stage left or right and leave America to help our foreign Sufferings Siblings in Christ?

This is not at all what I am saying.

Some will be called to do so. I personally know many who have done just that.

I know this Missionary in Pakistan. I know Missionaries in Africa and in Albania and in Russia and in Japan and in China and South America. All over.

We may not be the ones to go - but - we are the ones to pray - the ones - to give.

Remember what Jesus said,

"'Truly I say to you, to the extent that you did it to one of these brothers of Mine, even the least of them, you did it to Me."

So

This is a photo taken after the over 200 homes of Christians where methodically burned to the ground.
It was a planned attack. The Islamist used certain chemicals that would assure that everything in and outside the homes would burn completely.

Please visit my friend and our brother in the Lord's FaceBook page to see the wonderful work he is doing in the Name of the Lord!

Below are just a few pictures. Just a few.

But please. Please.

Don't Close Your Eyes. 

Pastor Naeem FaceBook

Below are JUST A FEW wonderful pictures of our Brother Pastor Naeem and the beautiful faces of those who have received the Lord! You can see the LOVE and LIGHT of Jesus in their eyes! 

Pastor Naeem's testimony is Incredible!

 Photo Album
Of
Passing out Bibles!!
Literally thousands upon thousands of Pakistanis have met the Lord!

The enemy is very angry - and is turn the Muslim majority against them! 

Life's Answer

..."...."I found the man I love.

I took hold of him

and would not let him go..."

Song of Solomon 3

There is no other to satisfy

Only in Him will love be found

In Him alone can I love

He who G-d has given me to love

I have searched the world through

I found


Life’s Answer

I was lost and alone, dazed and confused,

Looking for something exciting and new;

I had done everything I had known to do,

climbed the highest mountain; I’d searched the world through.

Still I had found I hungered to be fed,

For more than this life of grandeur I lead.

It was as if I were driven to find the way,

to where I am now today.

I couldn’t put my finger on it, what it was I heard.

 I don’t know that it was one particular word.

All I know is that one-day,

I heard this man speak the most incredible words and say,

“For God so loved the world that he gave his Only Son;”

  That moment, I knew what had to be done.

I didn’t wait another moment. I fell down on my knees.

 I asked God to forgive me and set me free.

I’m not lost, alone, dazed or confused any more.

 I let Jesus in my heart’s door.

My life is exciting and brand new!

 I found life’s answer after searching the world through.

An old song I found...I had written....heehee

Remember

 A time to remember

A moment in time

Memories unfolding, within my heart and mind;

Capturing my here and now, sweet whispers of the past.

I can see you. Can you see me?  

Like a breeze that comes from nowhere and leaves just as it came.

Like the sun that warms the chill away my memories bring me gain.

Though the years have brought so many things, changes all around.

Still like yesterday sweet echoes do resound. 
 

    A time to remember

A moment in time

Like music in a ballroom, two dancers lives entwine.

Capturing my here and now, sweet whispers of the past.

I can see you. Can you see me? 

A walk down Main St. Young lovers hand in hand.

Midnight music of the heart shared on quilted land.

The deep warm comfort of his strong and tender touch;

The longing desire of her wanting him so much.

    A time to remember

A moment in time

Like yesterday is tomorrow and tomorrow is mine.

Capturing my here and now, sweet whispers of the past.

I can see you. Can you see me? 

I remember all the wonder. I remember all the song.

I remember how I wished those days would last a lifetime long.

Forever seemed too short a time. Nighttime fell too soon.

As melodic harmony we shared, beneath the quartered moon.

  A time to remember

A moment in time

A whisper in my heart of hearts a picture in my mind.

Capturing my here and now, sweet whispers of the past.

I can see you. Can you see me? 

I don’t know where you came from; like the breeze I cannot see.

I don’t know how long I’ll have you here blowing over me.

I do know that you’ll always be inside this heart of mine.

For that one day long ago, that moment in time. 
                                 

 A time to remember

A momet in time. 

When loves first bloom touched this heart of mine.

Capturing my here and now, sweet whispers of the past.

I can see you. Can you see me?

I remember.

Do you remember that moment in time? 

I remember…that moment in time. 

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