This is For All The "Me Too's" Out There...

Please know there IS healing out there.

I too was a victim the majority of my childhood and teenage life.

This song is a staple of my daily life now.

Sometimes

 When I feel like just crawling into a corner away from it all. 

Instead, I crawl up into His big hands and listen to this song.

Here is the "Spontaneous" version - for those who enjoy those!

Love & Peace

❤         ✌

The Truth

WILL set  you free.

Once you accept it.

" For I know what plans I have in mind for you,’ says LORD,‘plans for well-being, not for bad things; so that you can have hope and a future.  When you call to me and pray to me, I will listen to you.  When you seek me, you will find me, provided you seek for me wholeheartedly." 

Jeremiah 29:11-13

Yeshua (Jesus) said,
 “I AM the Way - and the Truth and the Life; 
no one comes to the Father except through me."

Rejoicing on the Altar

So I was sitting here this morning talking with the Lord, when He asked me this question,

"Amy, do you really need someone else?"

So, just to fill you in a bit, so you have some context as to why the question was asked, I will share a bit more.

You see I was pouring out my heart to the Lord about (what I believed was) my need for someone to come along side me in my (ministry) life before I could fully blossom and flourish in the call He had for my life.
*(mind you this is not the first time I have had this conversation with the Lord -lol- none the less as always and ever so graciously with immense love, the Lord continued to converse with me as if it were the first time)
When I was done (whining) pouring out my heart to the Lord, He asked me the question,

"Amy, do you really need someone else?"

My answer? 😊
"No. Lord you know I don't." 💕 "You have become to me, all that I need."  💗

Then the Lord reminded me of a dream I had years ago, 

My New Room at THE ALTAR

click here to read dream

  

Where He spoke very clearly to me about my call. It wasn't the first time and it wasn't the last.
However it was very powerful.

After I was reminded of that dream Holy Spirit began to bring to mind a wealth of scripture that lifted me up as I lay on my altar. 

This first scripture is one of my favorites. I speak this one daily.

Galatians 2:20  "I have been crucified with Yeshua Messiah and I no longer live, but Messiah lives in me. The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,who loved me and gave himself for me."

Luke 9:23 "Then Yeshua was saying to everyone, “If anyone wants to follow Me, he must deny himself, take up his cross every day, and follow Me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will save it."

John 12:24 "Amen, amen I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the earth and dies, it remains alone. But if it dies, it produces much fruit."

John 3:30  "He must increase, while I must decrease.”

You see, (being transparent here) I am on the downhill side of my natural life. I have lived through a great deal (of horrific traumas) here on earth. I only have the good Lord to credit for my life. 👣 He has been with me every step of the way! He has turned every tragedy into a victory! Psalm 34:19

So here I am still and I am continually learning how to live a life of rejoicing in the grave!

Which is just another way of saying dying to ones self - in all things - every day - at all times - in every situation. - It's not always easy. 

Because, well, I am still in this natural body. 

That's when I so appreciate this beautiful scripture found in the Psalms 103:14

"For He knows our frame.
He remembers that we are but dust."

I suppose it's quite apropos that King David was one who wrote this Psalm for us. A Psalm of the attributes of our loving Heavenly Father. Our Creator.

I don't suppose King David had too many friends after Jonathon. However, you sure can tell just how much David knew and loved His Lord by his writings. 💖 💔 💕 💗 Through it all. The brokenness. The sin. The heartache. The loneliness. The repentance. The passion. The obedience. He was surely a man after God's own heart. 

Oh dear Lord, help me too be all you have created me to be. To live a life worthy of the calling I have received in Yeshua Messiah. Through you Holy Spirit. For your Glory. Help me to rejoice daily in dying to myself as I live to serve others in your love...like you!

Give Me a Heart Like Yours! 

I want a heart like yours Lord.

No other heart will do.

I need a heart like yours, Lord.

If I’m to love like you.

I want to love them like you love me.

You’re always gentle and kind.

Never boastful, proud or rude,

I want to love them like you.

You never look out for yourself Lord.

You’re always looking out for me.

You don’t keep tabs on every thing I do wrong.

You never anger easily.

I want a heart like yours Lord.

No other heart will do.

I need a heart like yours, Lord.

If I’m to love to love like you.

I want to love them like you love me.

Always being my best friend.

Never delighting when evil comes my way.

But rejoicing in the truth instead.

I want to love them like you love me.

You've never failed me yet.

You’re always there to protect me Lord.

Ever trusting; in me your hope is set.

.

I want to love them like you love me.

I want to touch them like you touch me.

I want to show them that your love is real.

I want a heart like yours, Lord.

I need a heart like yours.

Give me a heart like yours.

A heart like yours.

1 Corinthians 13

I love you Lord ~ AmyColleen

No More!

Silence captivates - in a loud unmanageable way
Road blocks of words - deafening stillness lay
Screaming whispers - of deepest despair
Every turn - each breath - every stare

Completely alone - in the midst of a crowd
Every touch point - loneliness surrounds 
You over there - Me over here
Alone are the lonely ones - in deepest despair

"Alone are the lonely ones in deepest despair."

Oh how I remember - I was once "the lonely one in deepest despair!"

No more!

I once felt "Alone in the midst of a crowd."

No more!

I once could not stay in a room without ambient noise of "some -kind" at all times because of the "screaming whispers" of my past! Afraid of the deafening silence!

No more!

I have been set free!

Halleluiah! By the love of Adonai! I have come to receive and know the Amazing Grace of God and come to know Yeshua our Messiah! Through him I have been set free from all the above! I no longer have to be afraid of my own thoughts.

Yes - Sometimes I feel so helpless, because as much as I remember what it was like to live in darkness and despair, and I do remember, at the same time, much of the time I feel so helpless. I feel as though I am so ill equipped to be able to adequately share with everyone just how incredibly, wonderfully, awesome, loving, gracious and beautiful the Lord was, has been and is to me.
To be able to adequately share how he lifted me up from death's door time and time again. How he put a new song in my heart!!!

Heaven Awaits

Warm, soft, strong,

His arms hold me close.
Tenderness, peace, love.
He speaks with His eyes.

Together in silence.
Face to face at last.
Tears of joy shed together.
No memory of my past.

A love to die for.
A death to live for.
The two become one.

My Lord and me. 

  

Heaven awaits. 

       

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AmyColleen

No One I Have Ever Known

There is no other love like Yours Lord.

It never waxes or wanes - forever consistently the same. 

(Yes I realize I doubled up there - the point)

You say what you mean. You mean what you say.

Your love is completely unconditional.

You knew who I was before I was who I am.

Still You never have left my side.

You watch over me every moment of each day. 

You watch over me all through the night.

Sing me sweet love songs while I sleep.

You're waiting for me with a smile when I awake.

You know every thought I think and every word I am about to speak, before they are even formed on my tongue.

Still You patiently sit and listen to me. I mean really listen to me, ramble on and on and on as if it were the first You had ever heard was on my heart.

You are like no one I have ever known.
Lord,You loved me so much that You wanted me to live forever with You.

That

You chose to take my place at the execution stake.

You stood in my place. Took my punishment.

So, I would not have to be punished.

So, I would not have to die.

You loved me so much.

So very much.

Lord, there is some much more.

But, basically this says it on a nutt shell.

There is no other love like Yours!

Today I Realized

God  heard everything I ever said to Him.

He heard every single word.
All the prayers I had ever prayed.

In fact, even those prayers that were no more than a groaning within my spirit born deep from my heart. 

HE heard them ALL.

Staring out my car window. Surrounded by a host of rush hour traveler's speeding past. Everyone in a hurry. Everyone going somewhere important to them - and today? Me, on my way to nowhere important really. It just HITS ME   *wham*    Like someone is playing a movie in my car and the screen is my windshield.

Strangest darn thing. 
I mean seriously - like yesterday in Target, only different. THIS time I start to see (remember) times and circumstances in my life that have been or are difficult or hurtful. 

THEN I SEE  (This is SOOOO cool) prayers I prayed! 

I  actually saw prayers that I had prayed, like written down.
The words flash across the screen (windshield).
I also saw (was reminded of) dreams the Lord had given me about such times - and - the VICTORIOUS outcome!

That's when I realized.

Everything I have been going through. 
Every trial - every hardship and tribulation, they were more than "just allowed" by God to build character - they were, ARE in fact, ANSWERS TO PRAYER - I was being given (strange as it was) a very unusual vision experience in my car - and  -because of it; 

TODAY I REALIZED - God hears my every prayer.

I will not pretend to understand how He works. 
I am just thankful He does and always amazed and so very humbled when He does.

I have prayed some pretty, well actually very serious prayers. 
God has taken them to heart. 
So I expect I will see some pretty serious trials and testings.

I suppose at this point I'm just glad I made it to where I was going without causing a major wreck on the interstate!

lol

Tough One to Swallow

As I was praying this morning for so many the Lord brought this to mind. Yes it is a tough word. However tough is not always bad.  Still chock full of nutrients.

This word is for those of us who are blessed enough at this point to be married.* Who love the Lord and are called according to His purpose.  Who are *undergoing fiery trials and being showered with a seemingly constant barrage of enemy attacks from within their own home.

I realize that may sound a bit backwards to some, but to those who have ears to hear, let them hear what the Lord would say to them.

I am not going to give a full teaching here on what Holy Spirit has shown me. It is difficult at best to receive for those who desire to be in the Lord's perfect will and yet with just the following few words and a pure heart for seeking after God, I am certain the Holy Spirit will show you the truth, what you can glean from this for your life. For those who are not ready to receive, it would be futile to even try and explain.

*Don't forget to click on the links!

This is God's divine order:

1. God

2. Marriage

3. Family

4. Church (ministry)

This is God's divine plan, plain and simple.  

Mix these up and you've got major problems.  

Before God ever created the church, He created the family.  

Before God ever created the family, He created the marriage. 

Before God created marriage He created us to have fellowship with Him!  

It is so critical for us to understand God's divine order. So very many families and marriages have been destroyed unwittingly because they didn't understand God's divine order. 

It is sometimes easy to get our personal ministry time to God confused with our vocation or our ministry for God.  When this happens God's divine order gets turned upside down and that is when our world comes crashing down around us.

Think of it like a triangle. God at the top, marriage next, family under marriage and the ministry (church) on the bottom. 

The minute we start giving more time to God, serving in our ministries, over spending time with God, is the moment we will see a shift taking place in the divine order of things.
  

"When our family, marriage starts rocking and a rollin'."

I will just say this, a few words... not every attack we come up against is a direct fire from our adversary Satan. Nope...and....We are able to close the doors to his assaults on us and our marriages and families by simply changing the way we do business. Spiritual business.

Why and How?

Well for starters  (this is the part that sticky for some)

The Why - We are actually the ones responsible for opening the windows and doors allowing the attacks into our lives and homes. Remember the Divine Order I mentioned at the very beginning?  Well that is how. When we get out of order the triangle crashes and the house comes tumbling down. Nothing is working the way it should. That's when the enemy gains his foothold in.

The How we can just fix it is simple but sometimes no so easy.

We just need to humble ourselves and get our "House back in God's divine order".

So I'll let those who need to hear this word listen and be blessed. 

Shalom 

AmyColleen

*Romans 8:28, *Ephesians 6:12

Why Haven't You Come?

"Death, where is your victory?
Death, where is your sting?”

"The sting of death is sin; and sin draws its power from the Law; but thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Yeshua the Messiah!"1 Corinthians 15:55-57

(Click on links)

As long as there is breath in the body, it is never too late to be redeemed.

The price has been paid for our sin. The cost was great and certainly nothing we could ever have afforded ourselves to pay. Yet, God so loved us each one, that He paid the price Himself, sacrificing His one and only begotten Son to make a way for each one who would believe to have eternal life. No matter what we have done, no matter when we end up coming to Him in repentance. 

As promised in the Word of God - A gift so extravagant, yet so simple it has been know to be a point of contention (at best) in the majority of nations around the world ever since our Creator stepped foot in the flesh upon this planet. As well as a gift so simple it has proven to completely confound the minds of those considered wisest among the worlds many religious and non religious scholars alike.

So then, why are YOU waiting to receive this gift of everlasting, eternal life? A life of peace?  A life where there are no more sorrows, no more tears?

Better yet, why wait until the last minute to be redeemed from sorrow and sadness when you can know such peace now?

I had the most beautiful opportunity this week to be a part in sharing this life saving message with a most precious soul. Someone so very dear to me asked me to share with and pray for a loved one who was very close to leaving this world. It is never easy to have to say good-bye to someone we love. When we know we will see them again, it does take the sting off a bit. I prayed and I shared this message of life in a way they had not heard before. They had been lied to by the enemy of their soul. They were told they could not come to Yeshua/Jesus because they had lived in the dark side too long, done too many bad things to too many people and could not be forgiven.

Well, that is wrong. I am happy to say this precious beautiful soul was set free and gave their life to Jesus 💖 and was baptized right there in their bed! Complete peace filled their heart and soul. In fact peace Emanated through the room.

They were ready to meet their creator now, where as 24 hrs before they were filled with fear. 

You don't have to wait until your last days. In fact most of us don't know when our last days are.

Come now and receive the peace you need. Stop surviving and start living the life your creator intended for you to live.

He loves you.

Come

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Something to think about

                                                                       

                                                             Jeremiah 29:13-14

"When you seek me, you will find me, provided you seek for me wholeheartedly; 

and
I will let you find me,’ says Adonai. 

"Then I will reverse your exile. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have driven you,’ says Adonai, ‘and bring you back to the place from which I exiled you."

Ever wonder why some who serve God wholeheartedly as Yeshua describes in Matthew  (*ch7 below)  still don't seem find Him?

Or perhaps they find Him but seem to still be living in exile?

Take a close look at these two verses again.

I have emphasized what the Lord has shown me is an issue for a great deal of His children and also for the people of Israel, for whom this prophecy is meant in original form.

First - in order for the promise Jeremiah speaks of to be fulfilled we must seek the LORD wholeheartedly. 

Let's take a look at the definition of the word wholeheartedly;

Using Merriam-Webster

1. 
   : completely and sincerely devoted, determined, enthusiastic
2. 
   :  marked by complete earnest commitment   
3. 
   
4. Wow that says a lot right there.
5. When I read this I think about when my kids were young and living at home.  Constantly running to and fro. I'll use a getting ready for school example.
6. 
   
7. One of them might be looking for something in the house and they say, 
8. "Mom, we need more what-ever downstairs."
9. My response, 
10. "I just bought some, it's in your cupboard.""
11. There's back, 
12. "No it's not I just looked there. Can I use yours?"
13. "No you may not. Look again. I just went to the store yesterday."
14. They look again and find nothing. So I tell them to search for it and wah-lah! There it is.
15. 
    
16. Searching takes more time.
17.  
18. But as the Prophet Jeremiah tells us, 
19. 
    
20. When we are committed to seeking God, determined in
21. all sincerity, devoted enthusiastically to giving ourselves completely over to finding Him; it is then that Adonai Himself will let us find Him.
22. 
    
23. The more effort we put into seeking Adonai the more assuredly He will reveal Himself to us.

So it is with this promise of God, that we must seek, we must find, we must know Him.
If we desire to be free.

Yeshua said, “I AM the Way — and the Truth and the Life; no one comes to the Father except through me."

John 14:6

 “If you obey what I say, then you are really my diciples, 32 you will know the Truth, and the Truth will set you free.”

John 8:30

Blessings in Yeshua our soon and coming Messiah!
AmyColleen

*Matthew 7:22,23

1.  22 On that Day, many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord! Didn’t we prophesy in your name? Didn’t we expel demons in your name? Didn’t we perform many miracles in your name?’ 23 Then I will tell them to their faces, ‘I never knew you! 

Just Sitting Here in My Prayer Chair

So I'm sitting here in my prayer chair, windows open and a soft breeze blowing through my living room ahead of a sure afternoon shower. It's unusually quiet for this time of day. Only the sound of birds calling back and forth to each other and an occasional squirrel barking can be heard. This, a welcome change from the normal clanging and banging of the delivery trucks from the industrial park behind my house.

Yep just sitting here enjoying some very special quiet time with Holy Spirit.

I have a lot on my heart and mind. Seasons changing so fast. Well, spiritually speaking that is. It's as if I woke up one morning and BAM right before my eyes one right after another were all the dreams and promises the Lord had given me with the tag-line "for such a time as this".

So yeah, what to do when that happens? 

The best thing always - is - to be still before the Almighty and KNOW HE IS GOD. 

Rest in His Word. 

Be quiet and let Holy Spirit do the talking.

It's called confirmation.

So that's what I am doing. So far it's rolling in. 

(The confirmation. lol)

We'll see where I am next month at this time.

One thing for sure - The Lord is so AmAzInG :)

Shalom and Blessings in Yeshua

This just REALLY spoke to me this morning...so I blogged it!

 A psalm of David

23

ADONAI is my shepherd; I lack nothing. 

He has me lie down in grassy pastures, 

he leads me by quiet water, 

he restores my inner person.

He guides me in right paths for the sake of his own name. 

Even if I pass through death-dark ravines, 

I will fear no disaster; for you are with me; 

your rod and staff reassure me.

 You prepare a table for me, 

even as my enemies watch;

 you anoint my head with oil

 from an overflowing cup.

 Goodness and grace will pursue me

 every day of my life;

 and I will live in the house of ADONAI

 for years and years to come.

Be Blessed in Yeshua our Messiah!
AmyColleen